where ever i go she goes.
so i pretty much hate my family.
like i just dont like them. i wish michael was still in jail. he always has some shit to say to me. always callin me fat or ugly or dyke this or dildo sucker or wutever the fuck. i hate it so much. and its not like if i tell monica she would give me any kinda sympathy. she would just be like, "well".. and shrug it off. i fucking hate both of them and i wanna like, flee somewhere, where no one knows my name, no one knows what i can and cannot do. i just wanna leave sometimes.
i talked to keisha today. i was pretty mad at michael when she called and i asked her if she ever wanted to like, go somewhere far away and make a new name for herself. and she said yea always. and then she asked do i ever think about doing that. and i said fuckin everyday. and she said "then lets do it together"...uhm..what? i paused and didnt answer her [obvs.] and i kinda shockingly smiled. and i know she was proly feeling stupid on the other end cuz i didnt answer. but that made me feel really good. i know she more then likely didnt mean it, but the thought of it. just me and her. struggling together,living together, just being, just living,
.........
ANYWAYS
my summer is going pretty good. ive burned some bridgesm but im realizing that maybe that bridge wasnt ment to be strong anyway. ppl STAY mad at me because of the decisions that i make, because of the ppl i choose to have in my life. but i dont have time for that. if youre my friend, you will be my friend reguardless.
ily all=D
like i just dont like them. i wish michael was still in jail. he always has some shit to say to me. always callin me fat or ugly or dyke this or dildo sucker or wutever the fuck. i hate it so much. and its not like if i tell monica she would give me any kinda sympathy. she would just be like, "well".. and shrug it off. i fucking hate both of them and i wanna like, flee somewhere, where no one knows my name, no one knows what i can and cannot do. i just wanna leave sometimes.
i talked to keisha today. i was pretty mad at michael when she called and i asked her if she ever wanted to like, go somewhere far away and make a new name for herself. and she said yea always. and then she asked do i ever think about doing that. and i said fuckin everyday. and she said "then lets do it together"...uhm..what? i paused and didnt answer her [obvs.] and i kinda shockingly smiled. and i know she was proly feeling stupid on the other end cuz i didnt answer. but that made me feel really good. i know she more then likely didnt mean it, but the thought of it. just me and her. struggling together,living together, just being, just living,
.........
ANYWAYS
my summer is going pretty good. ive burned some bridgesm but im realizing that maybe that bridge wasnt ment to be strong anyway. ppl STAY mad at me because of the decisions that i make, because of the ppl i choose to have in my life. but i dont have time for that. if youre my friend, you will be my friend reguardless.
ily all=D