beautiful, like the moons reflection when, its passing off your skin, and b4 i let u i hear u say...
havent posted a coherent entry in a while...so lets do it!
the most important thing in my life right now, as we speak is the kick back tomorrow. oh yea. IM HAVING A KICK BACK! lol. the ppl that are supposed to be coming are
john
nina
keisha[and friend]
victoria
HER FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND
cami
nelson
andrea&gf
kc
mike
airami
and some other ppl i suppose.
ok ok.. let me explain the problem.. so i was o the phone with keisha and we were talkin. earlier that day, i believe it was yesterday, i was on aim and melissa was my ikon..[btw, melissa pretty much owns my life] so that night we were talking and she is like, oh can i bring one of my friends to the kickback with me? and i said who.. and she said some name and i was like okay.. and then she goes,
"dont be mad if we be all hugged up or something".....wtf?? um okay. so i was pretty much thinking that she saw melissa in my ikon, cuz right after she said this she brought her name up.. jealous much??
so i obviously told her that aint nobody fuckin worried about her. but i am.. i soo am.
and i couldnt just tell her that she couldnt bring her friend cuz like wtf i dont wanna come off as a hater or whatever.and plus, im trying this new thing, its called "showing her that i dont care when its painfully obvious that i do, so much" and if i would have told her she couldnt bring her, she would have won..i know its childish.. but blah.. i dont want her to know that she has me. its not a good feeling.and i think back and ask myself wtf was i smoking when i told her i was in love with her fucking bananas!
i havent even gotten to the best part..
victoria is coming. victoria plus one. oh, who is the "plus one" you ask?
its shanae...MUTHAFUCKIN SHANAE!!! argh! for the same reason i told keisha she could bring her friend is the same reason why when she was like "well im gonna be chillin with my girl for a minute, but is it alright if she comes too?" i was like sure, no problem. wtf darbrielle??? wut the fucking fuck?
i mean, im totally over victoria, but its arguable that feelings change when you see someone in the flesh. like, the last time i saw vic was when she came to my job in jeans and a thermal and that fitted hat..[sheessh..] But ppl has been telling me that she gained weight now, so hopefully my shallow side will be like.."ugh wtf?"..lol.[horrible right?]
my financial aid got suspended so im gonna try n appeal it, but if i cant im gonna get a second job. i havent told monica yet, lmao. but i will in time, when im 50.
oh and im getting kicked out in a year. and GUESS WHO THE FUCK ASKED ME TO MOVE IN WITH THEM?? keisha. sigh*.. this bitch. idk what she was expecting me to say. like i was flattered beyond belife, but i know I KNOW that if i lived with her i would be turned into this homemaker fucking leave it to beaver ass bitch who cooked and cleaned and had sex any time she wanted. i have no problem being someones sex slave..BUT A SLAVE SLAVE??
oh no, you got the wrong one.
but then, [and i know.. im retarted] i would love waking up and seeing her in the morning. it would feel like, idk. im just gonna end right now cuz i was about to sound pretty rediculous.
ily all
the most important thing in my life right now, as we speak is the kick back tomorrow. oh yea. IM HAVING A KICK BACK! lol. the ppl that are supposed to be coming are
john
nina
keisha[and friend]
victoria
HER FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND
cami
nelson
andrea&gf
kc
mike
airami
and some other ppl i suppose.
ok ok.. let me explain the problem.. so i was o the phone with keisha and we were talkin. earlier that day, i believe it was yesterday, i was on aim and melissa was my ikon..[btw, melissa pretty much owns my life] so that night we were talking and she is like, oh can i bring one of my friends to the kickback with me? and i said who.. and she said some name and i was like okay.. and then she goes,
"dont be mad if we be all hugged up or something".....wtf?? um okay. so i was pretty much thinking that she saw melissa in my ikon, cuz right after she said this she brought her name up.. jealous much??
so i obviously told her that aint nobody fuckin worried about her. but i am.. i soo am.
and i couldnt just tell her that she couldnt bring her friend cuz like wtf i dont wanna come off as a hater or whatever.and plus, im trying this new thing, its called "showing her that i dont care when its painfully obvious that i do, so much" and if i would have told her she couldnt bring her, she would have won..i know its childish.. but blah.. i dont want her to know that she has me. its not a good feeling.and i think back and ask myself wtf was i smoking when i told her i was in love with her fucking bananas!
i havent even gotten to the best part..
victoria is coming. victoria plus one. oh, who is the "plus one" you ask?
its shanae...MUTHAFUCKIN SHANAE!!! argh! for the same reason i told keisha she could bring her friend is the same reason why when she was like "well im gonna be chillin with my girl for a minute, but is it alright if she comes too?" i was like sure, no problem. wtf darbrielle??? wut the fucking fuck?
i mean, im totally over victoria, but its arguable that feelings change when you see someone in the flesh. like, the last time i saw vic was when she came to my job in jeans and a thermal and that fitted hat..[sheessh..] But ppl has been telling me that she gained weight now, so hopefully my shallow side will be like.."ugh wtf?"..lol.[horrible right?]
my financial aid got suspended so im gonna try n appeal it, but if i cant im gonna get a second job. i havent told monica yet, lmao. but i will in time, when im 50.
oh and im getting kicked out in a year. and GUESS WHO THE FUCK ASKED ME TO MOVE IN WITH THEM?? keisha. sigh*.. this bitch. idk what she was expecting me to say. like i was flattered beyond belife, but i know I KNOW that if i lived with her i would be turned into this homemaker fucking leave it to beaver ass bitch who cooked and cleaned and had sex any time she wanted. i have no problem being someones sex slave..BUT A SLAVE SLAVE??
oh no, you got the wrong one.
but then, [and i know.. im retarted] i would love waking up and seeing her in the morning. it would feel like, idk. im just gonna end right now cuz i was about to sound pretty rediculous.
ily all