WHEN LOVE COMES CALLING...
man i havent posted in like forever and three days. im sry friends but im not gonna be posting that much..well it depends if something was exciting/tramatic enough for me to post. tracie and i started a journal and i have to write 2 pages front and back plus i PINKY SWORE so you know how that goes. lol srsly though.
nothing has been going on with me just more of me hating my job, hating my house, hating my family [well that one not so much, although michael is beginning to piss me off but thats everday] more of me missing girls from my past. that one never seems to leav my life..lol. i told nina on friday that i did think i was worthy of realy love. i realized that that was a really bold statement and that most would get mad that i believe that but i mean, look at my track record. i know i havent lived all of my life yet obviously, but im just getting used to the fact that i dont have anyone, and probably wont. and as of now, at this very moment where im sitting at my computer table typing this very word,i feel okay with that. like this isnt some type of like depressing thing either. its more of a realization and acceptance to what is going on. im not sad anymore about wanting someone. i mean sure it would be nice, but im not gonna loose sleep over it. but is feeling like your not worthy of something as great as love a bad thing?
meh, if it is it is.
anywho, nothing much going on with me. ive noticed that i bottle things up. and when the come up, the feelings just spill over the top like lava. wow. the things you can fucking realize while writing in a book for ten days straight. crazy.
im happy bbys. i hope all of you are too C=
nothing has been going on with me just more of me hating my job, hating my house, hating my family [well that one not so much, although michael is beginning to piss me off but thats everday] more of me missing girls from my past. that one never seems to leav my life..lol. i told nina on friday that i did think i was worthy of realy love. i realized that that was a really bold statement and that most would get mad that i believe that but i mean, look at my track record. i know i havent lived all of my life yet obviously, but im just getting used to the fact that i dont have anyone, and probably wont. and as of now, at this very moment where im sitting at my computer table typing this very word,i feel okay with that. like this isnt some type of like depressing thing either. its more of a realization and acceptance to what is going on. im not sad anymore about wanting someone. i mean sure it would be nice, but im not gonna loose sleep over it. but is feeling like your not worthy of something as great as love a bad thing?
meh, if it is it is.
anywho, nothing much going on with me. ive noticed that i bottle things up. and when the come up, the feelings just spill over the top like lava. wow. the things you can fucking realize while writing in a book for ten days straight. crazy.
im happy bbys. i hope all of you are too C=