where is my motivation...

[gabbieface]

it kinda sucks when you work really hard for something and you barely get any recognition. i shouldn't even be looking for recognition, i should just be looking to do the best that i can...

but my heart's not even in it, i'm not enjoying this, i didn't really want to do this from the start, i enjoyed it a little at first but it's not really where i want to go right now

this is a new year, im taking new steps, but they're all too stressful

NO, it's not that, it's just that i'm stressed out right now. nothing else i do is stressful. everything else is chill and happy and fun now.

im being so selfish. there are plenty of kids who would kill to be where i am and i'm here, not enjoying it at all. i'm so selfish. why. i hate it.

i'm at a fork

should i keep moving and see where i end up? then evaluate?

or just give up now?

no, i can't give up, things can still get better

i can't believe i'm overreacting over this stupidlittlething

stupidbigthing

idk. i didn't capital any i's in this entry. it kinda hurts.

need to do english homework then eat then sleep.

at least house is tomorrow night...<3

xox
gabbie