find me a final resting place in pieces... plz!
okay ive decided that my live journal is gonna be nothing but me venting my frustrations, with the rare occasion of happiness cuz i pray (something i usually dont do cuz i dont believe in it anymore) that i have a few times to hang out with my friends....soo well if u want read if you dont well then dont i dont care anymore
to start off this lovely entry....i hate my younger siblings with a passion...especially mine...they're beyond annoying...all they do is fist fight and boss each other around and giggle...i hate it when they giggle! its soo annoying...then my brohter who is 13, bosses my sister around who is 9 as if he were her father..."ohh alex you cant eat that we're about to eat lunch" "alex you cant watch FRIENDS its not a good show for you" wtf he sounds like my dad! then my sister starts screaming and cusing...yes cusing shes 9!!! it makes me go insane...
so i talked to my friend nicole last nite and she said that she puts on headphones and blasts music rele loud...and goes into her own little world..well i think im gonna try and do that...i guess it could work...except i think to much about the reality world around me...i have to change that i have to "escape" to my own world...i cant stand this house any more!!!!!!!!!!!! god ive lost everything in this house...ive lost my sanity, my faith, sense of control, my sense of humor, also i gained a lot from living in ths house, ive become depressed, ive become rele stressed out, and i think ive gotten high blood pressure...wonderful rite! im a DAMN lucky kid a DAMN lucky kid.... ahhhhhhhh (yes i was rele screaming) i want out! i want it soo badly more than ne thing in the world! like i seriously want to ask my parents to let me go live with someone else i cant stand this any more...maybe i can live with tony and help take care of the baby...i mean they live like 5 minutes away from school soo i can like walk to school.. but idk i just want to get out of here before i do something stupid...to be honest with yall thats what im rele afraid of that im gonna get soo frustrated and depressed that i wont be able to get over it...and il be this way the rest of my life...or that i get soo frustrated and depressed that i do something totally stupid! guys i rele need help and my parents dont realize i mean ive asked for whatever like anti depressants but noo my dad has to be the jerk that he is and goes "your not depressed its all in your mind, and you dont need medication" "you have nothing to even depressed about" yeah well he needs a reality check now doesnt he...any person who has a full working brain can tell that i need help!...ohh wait full working brain thats asking a little to much of my dad...but still!!! guys if your reading this i rele need your help i dont know what to do any more i have not strenght to continue like this i cant do it i rele rele cant...im slowly dying inside...HELP ME!
to start off this lovely entry....i hate my younger siblings with a passion...especially mine...they're beyond annoying...all they do is fist fight and boss each other around and giggle...i hate it when they giggle! its soo annoying...then my brohter who is 13, bosses my sister around who is 9 as if he were her father..."ohh alex you cant eat that we're about to eat lunch" "alex you cant watch FRIENDS its not a good show for you" wtf he sounds like my dad! then my sister starts screaming and cusing...yes cusing shes 9!!! it makes me go insane...
so i talked to my friend nicole last nite and she said that she puts on headphones and blasts music rele loud...and goes into her own little world..well i think im gonna try and do that...i guess it could work...except i think to much about the reality world around me...i have to change that i have to "escape" to my own world...i cant stand this house any more!!!!!!!!!!!! god ive lost everything in this house...ive lost my sanity, my faith, sense of control, my sense of humor, also i gained a lot from living in ths house, ive become depressed, ive become rele stressed out, and i think ive gotten high blood pressure...wonderful rite! im a DAMN lucky kid a DAMN lucky kid.... ahhhhhhhh (yes i was rele screaming) i want out! i want it soo badly more than ne thing in the world! like i seriously want to ask my parents to let me go live with someone else i cant stand this any more...maybe i can live with tony and help take care of the baby...i mean they live like 5 minutes away from school soo i can like walk to school.. but idk i just want to get out of here before i do something stupid...to be honest with yall thats what im rele afraid of that im gonna get soo frustrated and depressed that i wont be able to get over it...and il be this way the rest of my life...or that i get soo frustrated and depressed that i do something totally stupid! guys i rele need help and my parents dont realize i mean ive asked for whatever like anti depressants but noo my dad has to be the jerk that he is and goes "your not depressed its all in your mind, and you dont need medication" "you have nothing to even depressed about" yeah well he needs a reality check now doesnt he...any person who has a full working brain can tell that i need help!...ohh wait full working brain thats asking a little to much of my dad...but still!!! guys if your reading this i rele need your help i dont know what to do any more i have not strenght to continue like this i cant do it i rele rele cant...im slowly dying inside...HELP ME!