get me out of this hell hold im suppose to call home...
okay second entry of the day...yeah i have THAT much to complain about! my life sux what can i say
soo alrite we have to do that whole summer reading thing for school...well i figure ehh i should get em out of the way and i have nothing to do soo y not il start the books now...well to get the list you have to like have this adobe reader thing installed on your computer well we dont have that on this computer but my dad has it on his...soo i ask him when he got home from work (at like 5:00) if i could just check the list nd copy it down nd he was like okay...well my mom goes to me heyy do u have ur reading list we can go get the books when i get back from picking your brother up from soccer practice...i was like no il go ask dad again...well now its like 7:00 nd i ask my dad again nd he flips out on me...he was like ohh i have to jump for you huh i have to just stop what im doing nd jump for you...okay drop what hes doing hes watching fucking tv yeah drop everything nd i mean his computer is rite behind the couch its not like he has to leave the room!!!...nd i was like well ur just watching tv nd i mean the computer is rite there...and he was like well i dont have to drop everything for you ya know the world doesnt revolve around caitlyn...well thnx dad like id didnt know that already god knows how many times you remind me that i have no importance in this world... you know the 5x's a day isnt enough hes gotta make it 6 or 7x's...soo okay i was gettin fed up wit him screaming at me for now apparent reason soo yeah i go alrite fine dont do it now sit watch tv just shut up! and he like flipped out even more... he was like get up stairs yadda yadda i just pretty much stood there nd ignored him b/c i was basically done communicating with the dumbass for the night...his only goal in life is too make himself feel better by making his daughter feel like crap
i hate living im my house, i hate my family, i hate my life here!...i honestly can say that all...i hate having a dumbass father who thinks hes the sultans shit...i hate having a mom who thinks that her husband will one day change...i hate having annoying bratty siblings who get away with everything...i cant wait to get out of this hell hold! im going to be one of those kids who goes off to college and never comes back! never visits for vacations or holidays...never writes about how well their excelling in college...and im gonna be one of those girls who doesnt ask her father to walk her down the aisle when she gets married...hopefully the heartless bastard will be dead by then...i swear i know people say that every teenager goes through these "phases" well ive been going through this "phase" my entire life nd i want it to end!!!!...what the hell can i turn to! drawing...ehh i get frustrated after a while cuz the drawings i draw never rele express what i feel...im not very good at writing...and running away never works (i know ive tried nd i got caught all 3x's)and well suicide wont work cuz then i cant spit on my fathers grave...soo what can i turn to my friends...i feel bad making them listen to me rant about my messed up family...i know they say that they dont mind but i mean rele if u had to listen to this everyday it would eventually start getting annoying...and well i dont want to annoy my friends...i hate fucking life and i dont know what to do to make it better or easier...ive tried a lot! and i cant seem to find the right answer!...crying my self to sleep has become a habit, locking my self in my room isnt possible b/c i have a nosy family and i share a room, ive tried the whole drawing thing like i said before...i just dont know what to do anymore!...im running out of ideas...okay lets rephrase that...i ran out of ideas... im going into break down...i cant deal with this any more...im giving up on everything!!! i cant do it! ive been trying for soo many years and it hasnt been working...y whould something go my way hmmm...alrite thats all for now im sorry guys for complaining again its just im soo pissed off rite now you would have no idea...i guess if my dad had to be a fucking failure in life he wants me to be one to well here comes a surprise dad...im gonna be soo successful that i wont know what to do with my self and il treat you just like you treat me now...like fucking shit...yeah nd if you guys havent realized by now i hate my dad
soo alrite we have to do that whole summer reading thing for school...well i figure ehh i should get em out of the way and i have nothing to do soo y not il start the books now...well to get the list you have to like have this adobe reader thing installed on your computer well we dont have that on this computer but my dad has it on his...soo i ask him when he got home from work (at like 5:00) if i could just check the list nd copy it down nd he was like okay...well my mom goes to me heyy do u have ur reading list we can go get the books when i get back from picking your brother up from soccer practice...i was like no il go ask dad again...well now its like 7:00 nd i ask my dad again nd he flips out on me...he was like ohh i have to jump for you huh i have to just stop what im doing nd jump for you...okay drop what hes doing hes watching fucking tv yeah drop everything nd i mean his computer is rite behind the couch its not like he has to leave the room!!!...nd i was like well ur just watching tv nd i mean the computer is rite there...and he was like well i dont have to drop everything for you ya know the world doesnt revolve around caitlyn...well thnx dad like id didnt know that already god knows how many times you remind me that i have no importance in this world... you know the 5x's a day isnt enough hes gotta make it 6 or 7x's...soo okay i was gettin fed up wit him screaming at me for now apparent reason soo yeah i go alrite fine dont do it now sit watch tv just shut up! and he like flipped out even more... he was like get up stairs yadda yadda i just pretty much stood there nd ignored him b/c i was basically done communicating with the dumbass for the night...his only goal in life is too make himself feel better by making his daughter feel like crap
i hate living im my house, i hate my family, i hate my life here!...i honestly can say that all...i hate having a dumbass father who thinks hes the sultans shit...i hate having a mom who thinks that her husband will one day change...i hate having annoying bratty siblings who get away with everything...i cant wait to get out of this hell hold! im going to be one of those kids who goes off to college and never comes back! never visits for vacations or holidays...never writes about how well their excelling in college...and im gonna be one of those girls who doesnt ask her father to walk her down the aisle when she gets married...hopefully the heartless bastard will be dead by then...i swear i know people say that every teenager goes through these "phases" well ive been going through this "phase" my entire life nd i want it to end!!!!...what the hell can i turn to! drawing...ehh i get frustrated after a while cuz the drawings i draw never rele express what i feel...im not very good at writing...and running away never works (i know ive tried nd i got caught all 3x's)and well suicide wont work cuz then i cant spit on my fathers grave...soo what can i turn to my friends...i feel bad making them listen to me rant about my messed up family...i know they say that they dont mind but i mean rele if u had to listen to this everyday it would eventually start getting annoying...and well i dont want to annoy my friends...i hate fucking life and i dont know what to do to make it better or easier...ive tried a lot! and i cant seem to find the right answer!...crying my self to sleep has become a habit, locking my self in my room isnt possible b/c i have a nosy family and i share a room, ive tried the whole drawing thing like i said before...i just dont know what to do anymore!...im running out of ideas...okay lets rephrase that...i ran out of ideas... im going into break down...i cant deal with this any more...im giving up on everything!!! i cant do it! ive been trying for soo many years and it hasnt been working...y whould something go my way hmmm...alrite thats all for now im sorry guys for complaining again its just im soo pissed off rite now you would have no idea...i guess if my dad had to be a fucking failure in life he wants me to be one to well here comes a surprise dad...im gonna be soo successful that i wont know what to do with my self and il treat you just like you treat me now...like fucking shit...yeah nd if you guys havent realized by now i hate my dad