Thuder Strikes on the 3rd Day
Hey...yea i didn't get a chanse to update my journal yesterday because i was on the phone melissa. I think she is starting to understand why i said & did the things that i did. But in her head will never understand the love for the music. She wasn't as upset with what i said about hbt but with just me. She was afraid that my music would replace her. It's sort silly for her to feel that way but she or anyone else will replace my music, i love it like i love my mother. That's a hell of a lot of love. I'm srry to everyone else that i kinda hurt within the past week or so.
Today while in art i got a call from my mom & i got all scared because she had to call me at that time. I told her that i would call her back when i get to work & that's what i did. My mom got a letter from her lawyer reguarding a message that left my father about 3 weeks ago. My dad is so pose to give me & my brother 1200 a month for cloths food & other things that we need. He gave 400 fucking bucks, I FLIPPED out because in that one week it cost 400 bucks for driving school & college credits. What kind of a father does that to his sons, it was bullshyt & still is. Plus he came back to the house to pick up a stereo when he ISN'T ALLOWED BACK,EVER. He violated the agreement he signed to & took advantage of me & my brother not knowing wasn't allowed back in the house. Did anyone say scum bag? I left him a message saying how can u do that, & now my dad is saying my mom brain washed me. He is going to such low levels to get what he wants. I will slight his thoart before he gets his way. I mean that, i will go to jail & watch the basterd die in my hands. I hate him so much. He has said & done so much that i will never be able to forgive him for. It makes me sick. I resent his being & hope he burns in hell.
Now trying to hit a lighter subject, i saw anglia today which i was really happy because i heard that rob & he spilt & i had this feeling that it would slowly destroy her, & i was right. I saw her in school & she was a mess, it's such a sad thing because even tho so much shit was talked about her i thought she was a pretty cool girl. Like I have talked to her a couple times & she seems like she knows how to have a good time & she seems happy & stuff like that. It breaks my heart to see someone fall apart from a realtionship bc that happened to me once & it sucks. But all things heal in time & she will heal just like everyone else i know that fell.
Joey finally explained what this whole coheed thing is about with the book & all. I'm goin to the site & find out more because coheed are gods & i want to know everything.
well i'm so drained from work & i need to study & play some el guitar & check out the coheed site.
peace & love
edd
Today while in art i got a call from my mom & i got all scared because she had to call me at that time. I told her that i would call her back when i get to work & that's what i did. My mom got a letter from her lawyer reguarding a message that left my father about 3 weeks ago. My dad is so pose to give me & my brother 1200 a month for cloths food & other things that we need. He gave 400 fucking bucks, I FLIPPED out because in that one week it cost 400 bucks for driving school & college credits. What kind of a father does that to his sons, it was bullshyt & still is. Plus he came back to the house to pick up a stereo when he ISN'T ALLOWED BACK,EVER. He violated the agreement he signed to & took advantage of me & my brother not knowing wasn't allowed back in the house. Did anyone say scum bag? I left him a message saying how can u do that, & now my dad is saying my mom brain washed me. He is going to such low levels to get what he wants. I will slight his thoart before he gets his way. I mean that, i will go to jail & watch the basterd die in my hands. I hate him so much. He has said & done so much that i will never be able to forgive him for. It makes me sick. I resent his being & hope he burns in hell.
Now trying to hit a lighter subject, i saw anglia today which i was really happy because i heard that rob & he spilt & i had this feeling that it would slowly destroy her, & i was right. I saw her in school & she was a mess, it's such a sad thing because even tho so much shit was talked about her i thought she was a pretty cool girl. Like I have talked to her a couple times & she seems like she knows how to have a good time & she seems happy & stuff like that. It breaks my heart to see someone fall apart from a realtionship bc that happened to me once & it sucks. But all things heal in time & she will heal just like everyone else i know that fell.
Joey finally explained what this whole coheed thing is about with the book & all. I'm goin to the site & find out more because coheed are gods & i want to know everything.
well i'm so drained from work & i need to study & play some el guitar & check out the coheed site.
peace & love
edd