One Year and all
Why the hell does it feel almost as hard to get through this day as it did one year ago?! I had hoped that this time around it wouldn't feel as bad. This time that some part of me was healed. Maybe I was wrong. I don't know. All I know is that I had to endure watching my mom and sister and nieces cry their eyes out today while I ran around trying to cheer them up. But who is there to do that for me? I endure this silently so that they can all do theirs in the company of family. Why is today so hard for me?! I don't understand. This day is harder than my dad's birthday. Even harder than my parents anniversary. I don't understand. Will I ever?!