teacher! my brain is full. can i be excused?
ack...
so.torn.on.subjects.
i love sara deeply. but it feels like im betraying her seeking a relationship with *him*
i dont even know if he feels for me the way i do for *him*. *his* best friend is finding out for me today. the friend keeps telling me *he's* a good guy and that *he* is loyal and that *he* wont ever hurt me. everyone else says *he* is a lying sack of shit. *he* only wants me for a cheap lay. (i know this isnt true, *he's* a virgin) and that *he* is only going to hurt me.
then theres always sara. whom i love deeply.
and there *he* is. i love him...possibly deeply?
its weird...i used to think i was a lesbian. ive been toying with that thought since......i was...........6? yeah. thats when i had my first crush. on a girl. i tried to kiss her and she said i was gross.
but now, i think ive completly disproved the lesbian theory. *guys, you still have a chance! ^_^*
i talked to mom about birth control. i told her i wanted it because my periods hurt so bad. she said to wait six months. i think i'll get a ride with one of my friends to the clinic. i think that *he* might be the one i finally give it up to.
i dont want to get pregnant, you know? how much would that suck?
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i keep hearing around school im a lesbian. i heard one black chic say "if that bitch come near me I'ma pop her ass!!"...somehow ppl think if your gay or bi or whatever, then you automatically want to rape everyone of your gender. wtf? are people so small minded? there are very few rapes committed by homosexuals when compared to heterosexual rapists.
some people think its gross. some people think homosexuality is nasty. someone is spreading around campus im exclusivly lesbian.
some people suck.
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someone PLEASE help me decide the sara/*him* thing. i love them both so much. i cant do this myself...
so.torn.on.subjects.
i love sara deeply. but it feels like im betraying her seeking a relationship with *him*
i dont even know if he feels for me the way i do for *him*. *his* best friend is finding out for me today. the friend keeps telling me *he's* a good guy and that *he* is loyal and that *he* wont ever hurt me. everyone else says *he* is a lying sack of shit. *he* only wants me for a cheap lay. (i know this isnt true, *he's* a virgin) and that *he* is only going to hurt me.
then theres always sara. whom i love deeply.
and there *he* is. i love him...possibly deeply?
its weird...i used to think i was a lesbian. ive been toying with that thought since......i was...........6? yeah. thats when i had my first crush. on a girl. i tried to kiss her and she said i was gross.
but now, i think ive completly disproved the lesbian theory. *guys, you still have a chance! ^_^*
i talked to mom about birth control. i told her i wanted it because my periods hurt so bad. she said to wait six months. i think i'll get a ride with one of my friends to the clinic. i think that *he* might be the one i finally give it up to.
i dont want to get pregnant, you know? how much would that suck?
.............................>
i keep hearing around school im a lesbian. i heard one black chic say "if that bitch come near me I'ma pop her ass!!"...somehow ppl think if your gay or bi or whatever, then you automatically want to rape everyone of your gender. wtf? are people so small minded? there are very few rapes committed by homosexuals when compared to heterosexual rapists.
some people think its gross. some people think homosexuality is nasty. someone is spreading around campus im exclusivly lesbian.
some people suck.
...........................>
someone PLEASE help me decide the sara/*him* thing. i love them both so much. i cant do this myself...