bouncing around inside of me
Hey, hi. Another writing excercise, in hopes of getting my words flowing... the notion being tossing off a paragraph or so here in my LJ, unedited.
Uh... so many topics I have not reported of late! Hmm, I'm feeling a wierd mild anxiety-sort of thing for a few weeks now. On and off, striking mysteriously... chest tensing up so it's hard to breathe... heart rate somewhat elevated, though well short of racing. It's wierd and I don't know what the triggers are... guilt possibly. Trying to figure that out. Another theory is the words I want to write but don't follow through to actually do are jostling around within, messing things up. Eh, maybe a factor.
Gee I hate being betrayed by my body. And I hate the mind vs. body dualism concept, that makes the prior sentence a concept that would occur to me, that is part of my European and Christian cultural heritage. Double foo.
Am feeling a smidge nauseated too (another recent phenom.) and thus must consider whether to go to SPAM tonight. Am certainly planning on going this evening to a production of Jane Ruhl's Orlando, yay!!! Perhaps I'll pack my bag (Christian gave me a silver sequined tote, which may become the new toybag) and decide after the play.There's a (SPAM) back to school theme which I will likely ignore, though that makes me a bit sad not to adhere to a theme, as themes tend to make things more fun. But it sounds like work to actually do.
Uh... so many topics I have not reported of late! Hmm, I'm feeling a wierd mild anxiety-sort of thing for a few weeks now. On and off, striking mysteriously... chest tensing up so it's hard to breathe... heart rate somewhat elevated, though well short of racing. It's wierd and I don't know what the triggers are... guilt possibly. Trying to figure that out. Another theory is the words I want to write but don't follow through to actually do are jostling around within, messing things up. Eh, maybe a factor.
Gee I hate being betrayed by my body. And I hate the mind vs. body dualism concept, that makes the prior sentence a concept that would occur to me, that is part of my European and Christian cultural heritage. Double foo.
Am feeling a smidge nauseated too (another recent phenom.) and thus must consider whether to go to SPAM tonight. Am certainly planning on going this evening to a production of Jane Ruhl's Orlando, yay!!! Perhaps I'll pack my bag (Christian gave me a silver sequined tote, which may become the new toybag) and decide after the play.There's a (SPAM) back to school theme which I will likely ignore, though that makes me a bit sad not to adhere to a theme, as themes tend to make things more fun. But it sounds like work to actually do.