the past kills
Nothing kills me more than looking or listening to what i once was and know i could never have that again.
Academics come before recreation.
Listening to all my old jazz stuff and concert band music i and so many of the greatest friends in the world used to play together. Listening to the beauty and passion put into it. Gazing at my art (paintings, drawings, and what not) and seeing my inspiration that helped me to paint for hours/days/weeks on end.
There is one concert band class being offered this yr at Ball State. It sounds so perfect. No try outs (unlike the jazz their [highly unlikely a non-music major freshmen would get selected after coming from such a small high school compared to those like LC and Ben Davis who had Jazz as a class]) The class just sounds sooo perfect exactly what i want in just an extra concertband class on the side of all my others that i am taking, plus i'm sure their are awesome people there i'd get along with perfectly just like the old high school days.
Unfortunately... It is at the same time as my mandatory Advertising class. and they only offer one intro to advertising class for the whole semester.
This kills listening to this music... my solos especially. I want those times back more than anything. kind of like an athlete who trains for his sport constantly, loves every minute of it and every teamate he has. Then its gone when he rips his ACL never playing again. only listening and watching.
Perhaps i shouldnt say never again (as i did in the very beginning of this) but for a very long time.
Maybe next year. Maybe. Hopefully
Academics come before recreation.
Listening to all my old jazz stuff and concert band music i and so many of the greatest friends in the world used to play together. Listening to the beauty and passion put into it. Gazing at my art (paintings, drawings, and what not) and seeing my inspiration that helped me to paint for hours/days/weeks on end.
There is one concert band class being offered this yr at Ball State. It sounds so perfect. No try outs (unlike the jazz their [highly unlikely a non-music major freshmen would get selected after coming from such a small high school compared to those like LC and Ben Davis who had Jazz as a class]) The class just sounds sooo perfect exactly what i want in just an extra concertband class on the side of all my others that i am taking, plus i'm sure their are awesome people there i'd get along with perfectly just like the old high school days.
Unfortunately... It is at the same time as my mandatory Advertising class. and they only offer one intro to advertising class for the whole semester.
This kills listening to this music... my solos especially. I want those times back more than anything. kind of like an athlete who trains for his sport constantly, loves every minute of it and every teamate he has. Then its gone when he rips his ACL never playing again. only listening and watching.
Perhaps i shouldnt say never again (as i did in the very beginning of this) but for a very long time.
Maybe next year. Maybe. Hopefully