My hurtful thoughts
We're done. I know that obviously.
But do you know?
It hurts massively.
The way you handle it between me, the way you put it in words to me. It hurts all over. The things you said to me. It's like I didn't matter at all. It's like I'm such a burden on you. No matter how or what I do or say is a major pain in the ass for you.
What we had for the past years was nothing to you.
You of all people should know how it feels. I won't hold any hard feelings for it coz karma is a bitch. But I'll keep in mind, that I won't trust you anymore. I'm taking you out of my life. That's what you wanted from the start anyways. There's no reason for me to keep you in my sincere heart any longer.
Telling me, we are friends. While you treat me as a fallout friend.
You want to keep us up to a minimum. You get what you want.
I'm tired of thinking of you in so many ways.
I'm tired of thinking the best for you.
I'm tired doing things that are for your benefit.
In the end, I'm the one ends up with nothing. As you per said, we are just an attachment with no feelings at all.
Of course I'll take it in a negative way. WHO DOESN'T!!!
And so you got what you want. I don't have any feelings towards you, not familiarity, not friendship, not love, no care, no nothing.
That's what you want. That's what you get.
Don't you realise? I'm the one who's always there for you? No matter what? But I guess you're to blind to saw that.
Since you have your dear friends now, I'm no longer needed then.
There's a way to turn things around. But it's all you now. You set the stage-play, and I went along as per you directed. It's your call. Want me to think of you differently, then its all on you.
Right now, there's nothing between us.
I miss you so much. But I'm dealing it this way.
It's your way. Which we had agreed on.
Evidently, I am blaming you. It's true. But it's your way and your thinking that leads this way.
I'm sorry. It's not entirely your fault, but I am blaming you on how you handling it.
From my heart,
Me - 25/10/13
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