I don't know what I'm doing (and I'm pretty sure I don't look cute doing it)
~.: Suddenly, job-hunting just got alot harder. I couldn't live with Kristie as a real mother. She dropped quite alot of pressure on me at dinner tonight. Thanks for organizing my priorities. I first need to find a suit, then find a job, then find a car (or maybe find a car and then a job, because I'm magically going to be able to pay for the car without the job), and then start saving money while paying stuff off at the same time, and I need to do this last week. I just spent the last two hours staring at my computer screen going "Nope, don't have a Masters, nope, Maryland is too far away, nope, I have no interest in being an accountant analyst supervisor executive (or something equally ridiculous sounding)." I mean, I don't know, am I just being picky? I just want something that sounds like it requires some degree of psychology background. Okay, working with adults with developmental disabilities sounds good, and for 30k a year, that's .... okay, for right out of college. But I really, really, really don't want to work with developmentally disabled people. I just ... I couldn't. I don't have a heart for it. God made other people for that- He didn't make me for that. Okay, I'll work with old people, but I don't wanna sit behind a desk coming up with playtime activities for them (because that's what it sounds like these jobs are expecting). I want to work with people who need guidance. I don't care if I have to be in training for two years and fill out constant paperwork on top of it. That's what I want to do, because that sounds closest to my ideal career. So why doesn't such a job exist?? I'm so confused. I don't understand. Am I supposed to just suck it up and take the first thing that comes along? I mean, I know I can't afford to be picky, but what must I sacrifice in order to make money? Everything?
~.: I don't know how Sarah and Layne have put up with this for six months, cuz I've only been doing it for two days and I'm in tears. This is so hard, and with Kristie breathing down my neck telling me I have to do this, this, this, and this and disagreeing with Dad at every turn about what my priorities should be, I just feel way too stressed and flustered. There are a few jobs that kinda sound like good ideas, but should I apply to them or should I let Dad look at them and revise my resume? Am I supposed to do this all by myself because that's what being an adult means, or can I still ask people what I should do? This is the most awkward transitional period since high school.
~.: I don't know how Sarah and Layne have put up with this for six months, cuz I've only been doing it for two days and I'm in tears. This is so hard, and with Kristie breathing down my neck telling me I have to do this, this, this, and this and disagreeing with Dad at every turn about what my priorities should be, I just feel way too stressed and flustered. There are a few jobs that kinda sound like good ideas, but should I apply to them or should I let Dad look at them and revise my resume? Am I supposed to do this all by myself because that's what being an adult means, or can I still ask people what I should do? This is the most awkward transitional period since high school.