hey shawtyyy....wussuuppp? HOLLER!
it's about time for a monthly update...
more like daily update i should say, because i can't recall the past month at all. All that i can even think of is... of course... COLLEGE! it's so hard for me to make any final decisions on my future. every college i'm looking at right now costs about the same- $43,000! Yes, quite expensive, i would say. how can i gte the money for it? the only real plane i have is to become a stripper and sell my body (more like boobs) to pay for my college education. it's worth it, right?! anyway, i know it's a buttload of money and i dont expect my family to be able to afford it, but i don't think what's happenning to me is fair. i mean, i've gone to public school all my life, which is perfectly fine with me...i couldn't have gone anywhere else. but the fact that BOTH of my siblings go to private schools, and at young ages, really disturbs me. add all of their tuition up and my parents will be spending more money than they can count! My mom- well she's defintely the lest selfish. she always sacrifices for the family and i truly do appreciate it, but she opened her store which is just another expense. and yes, she deserves it, because it is one of her dreams and she has always wanted her own store, but it's money$$$. my dad- what a schmuck... gambling, smoking, golf, whatever it is he "does"... he spends more on himself than he realizes, and not for the good of it either. if he didn't smoke, for the seventeen years that i've been alive, he could have saved about $15,000! so don't complain to me alinnawlins. yes, i understand, he works- it's his money. but he also needs to support the family, and not harm the family.
they act like it's so unexpected...like i never planned on going to college. i just don't understand how people can't plan for these things ahead. i know i may be sounding like a huge JAP or being really selfish, but just think about it. everything they say to me makes no sense. whatever...even when i try to argue it, i get no where.
i was so devastated when my dad told me i had to go to lsu. not to hate on anyone who goes or is going there, but i just know it's not the place for me. i'm not too good for it... i just want to GET OUTTT of louisiana! is that wrong of me? it just sucks that all of my hard work in school got me no where... what's the point of ever trying??? i guess i did it more for myself, whcih is great, but it is still heartbreaking for me. i couldn't believ it when i broke down at school the other day. i neverrr cry at school; i just don't like people feeling sorry for me and having to see me really upset like that. i don't like attention when i'm upset, whcih is the complete opposite of a lot of people i know. it's just hard for me to have to face the decision of being in debt for the rest of my life or going soemwhere i think i will be unhappy at. happiness and in debt? OR miserable and free? you decide.
shit, special olympics dance is like...NOW....i'll post later...hoepfully before next month!
more like daily update i should say, because i can't recall the past month at all. All that i can even think of is... of course... COLLEGE! it's so hard for me to make any final decisions on my future. every college i'm looking at right now costs about the same- $43,000! Yes, quite expensive, i would say. how can i gte the money for it? the only real plane i have is to become a stripper and sell my body (more like boobs) to pay for my college education. it's worth it, right?! anyway, i know it's a buttload of money and i dont expect my family to be able to afford it, but i don't think what's happenning to me is fair. i mean, i've gone to public school all my life, which is perfectly fine with me...i couldn't have gone anywhere else. but the fact that BOTH of my siblings go to private schools, and at young ages, really disturbs me. add all of their tuition up and my parents will be spending more money than they can count! My mom- well she's defintely the lest selfish. she always sacrifices for the family and i truly do appreciate it, but she opened her store which is just another expense. and yes, she deserves it, because it is one of her dreams and she has always wanted her own store, but it's money$$$. my dad- what a schmuck... gambling, smoking, golf, whatever it is he "does"... he spends more on himself than he realizes, and not for the good of it either. if he didn't smoke, for the seventeen years that i've been alive, he could have saved about $15,000! so don't complain to me alinnawlins. yes, i understand, he works- it's his money. but he also needs to support the family, and not harm the family.
they act like it's so unexpected...like i never planned on going to college. i just don't understand how people can't plan for these things ahead. i know i may be sounding like a huge JAP or being really selfish, but just think about it. everything they say to me makes no sense. whatever...even when i try to argue it, i get no where.
i was so devastated when my dad told me i had to go to lsu. not to hate on anyone who goes or is going there, but i just know it's not the place for me. i'm not too good for it... i just want to GET OUTTT of louisiana! is that wrong of me? it just sucks that all of my hard work in school got me no where... what's the point of ever trying??? i guess i did it more for myself, whcih is great, but it is still heartbreaking for me. i couldn't believ it when i broke down at school the other day. i neverrr cry at school; i just don't like people feeling sorry for me and having to see me really upset like that. i don't like attention when i'm upset, whcih is the complete opposite of a lot of people i know. it's just hard for me to have to face the decision of being in debt for the rest of my life or going soemwhere i think i will be unhappy at. happiness and in debt? OR miserable and free? you decide.
shit, special olympics dance is like...NOW....i'll post later...hoepfully before next month!