IT'S BACK
I woke this morning at 5:30 with what I can only describe as stabbing pain in my lower right hand stomach. And boy did it hurt. I lay there for a while contemplating what it could be. Period was coming yes. But could it give me this much pain? Then thoughts of appendicitis hit me. It was the right place. It felt like something was gonna burst. You can imagine the horror images flashing through my head at this point. It was horrible. But then I came back down to earth and realised something more depressing than appendicitis. Endometriosis. I used to get the same pain years ago. I actually went to hospital wtih suspected appendicitis only to find I had a really bad urine infection, which in later months turned out to be the dreaded endometriosis. I think it must have come back. That's pretty shitty. Wish we could look inside ourselves and check ourselves for cysts and tumours. It would put an end to all this specualtion. If it is what I think, then there's nought I can do out here. Just have to wait till I get back to Blighty and get myself an appointment with the gynae! I get really nervous these day with all these twinges because I think "that's the end of my ovaries" and the end of my fertility. I shouldn't be such a drama queen but Doc did tell me that it could come back and I will always remember having to sign that consent form before my cystectomy saying that if they had to remove my ovaries they could. It's a horible thought thinking that I could never become a mother. I'm watching all my friends right now starting families and it's difficult to watch becuase part of me thinks that I'll never get to experience that. Anyhow, like I said there is nothing I can do about it here. So I'll just have to sit pretty and hope for the best!
So this morning began late and very dozey. But ended up pretty productive. I rewrote half of the e-village website. Deepal has been working on this for over a month and though the writing was good but perhaps a little repetitive, biggest problem was that there was no order to it. I impressed Wanni last night by writing a list. I know it's easy to impress some people. He was amazed that I could plan the order of the website in a simple list. He thoguht it was something we learn in school - but I told him it was just common sense....something I'm realising not many Sri Lankans possess! So by 3pm my website text was looking pretty fly. The girls are getting me more and more to help them write replies to emails. It seems more and more like a dictation exercise. I say aloud the reply and they type. I know they should be trying to formulate the mails but sometimes its just easier if I do. They are however getting good practise in listening! So atleast something good is coming out of it!
Today the air was dancing with butterflies. It's butterfly mating season right now and the air is full of millions of them. Its really pretty. Never seen anything like it before. Wanni was determined to get pictures of the girls with the butterflies so had them doing all the cheesey Sri Lankan poses! After lunch, out of the blue, he decided that there weren't any nice pictures of me so he'd get Radhika to take some. I tried to explain that there was no such thing as a nice picture of me...but he wasn't listening. So out came Radhika armed with the camera. I hate posing for photos unless I'm pulling a stupid face. That's why the only decent photos of me are on my wedding day, when I was made to pose. So she snapped away. For some reason today, the girls thought I looked really cute.....it was something to do with my outfit! Anyways, have to admit, I still didn't get into this whole posing thing. I find it embarassing. But piccies were taken and a folder created on the shared drive called Marissa_cute. Hmmmmm! Personally I looked pregnant. With all the wieght I have lost, I still look like a hefer. Or actually, I just look like my Dad. Poor Craig.
It's still just too hot at the mo. So by 3:30 I decided it was time to go chill out for a while. So I left them all working and I headed to my spot under the tree with the book. I think the girls must think I have changed suddenly. No footie, no tank bathing. When I had the dodgey stomach, I didn't have the energy to play footie, and now I have my period, I have too much pain to play footie. Not sure if I'm ready to explain it to them but I had to let them down gently when I told them that I wasn't going to go with them to A'Pura tomorrow. I can't face it becuase it's gonna be stinking hot, becuase i'll have period pains and becuase I'll have to sit around for 4 hours while they are in their training course. fair enough I reckon.
Archie came home this afternoon. That's good news. And Geevani's cooking dinner tonight. I think that's why I got a bad stomach. All this eating everyone else's food. My tummy had obviously become accustomed to Geevani/Ramanee/Archie cooking and can't accept anything less!
Oh and I did the most fabulous thing in the shower today. I shaved my legs. I was actually feeling ill everytime I looked at them. I feel like a woman again. Beautiful smooth tanned legs. Craig, youd love them!
Good night all
mx
So this morning began late and very dozey. But ended up pretty productive. I rewrote half of the e-village website. Deepal has been working on this for over a month and though the writing was good but perhaps a little repetitive, biggest problem was that there was no order to it. I impressed Wanni last night by writing a list. I know it's easy to impress some people. He was amazed that I could plan the order of the website in a simple list. He thoguht it was something we learn in school - but I told him it was just common sense....something I'm realising not many Sri Lankans possess! So by 3pm my website text was looking pretty fly. The girls are getting me more and more to help them write replies to emails. It seems more and more like a dictation exercise. I say aloud the reply and they type. I know they should be trying to formulate the mails but sometimes its just easier if I do. They are however getting good practise in listening! So atleast something good is coming out of it!
Today the air was dancing with butterflies. It's butterfly mating season right now and the air is full of millions of them. Its really pretty. Never seen anything like it before. Wanni was determined to get pictures of the girls with the butterflies so had them doing all the cheesey Sri Lankan poses! After lunch, out of the blue, he decided that there weren't any nice pictures of me so he'd get Radhika to take some. I tried to explain that there was no such thing as a nice picture of me...but he wasn't listening. So out came Radhika armed with the camera. I hate posing for photos unless I'm pulling a stupid face. That's why the only decent photos of me are on my wedding day, when I was made to pose. So she snapped away. For some reason today, the girls thought I looked really cute.....it was something to do with my outfit! Anyways, have to admit, I still didn't get into this whole posing thing. I find it embarassing. But piccies were taken and a folder created on the shared drive called Marissa_cute. Hmmmmm! Personally I looked pregnant. With all the wieght I have lost, I still look like a hefer. Or actually, I just look like my Dad. Poor Craig.
It's still just too hot at the mo. So by 3:30 I decided it was time to go chill out for a while. So I left them all working and I headed to my spot under the tree with the book. I think the girls must think I have changed suddenly. No footie, no tank bathing. When I had the dodgey stomach, I didn't have the energy to play footie, and now I have my period, I have too much pain to play footie. Not sure if I'm ready to explain it to them but I had to let them down gently when I told them that I wasn't going to go with them to A'Pura tomorrow. I can't face it becuase it's gonna be stinking hot, becuase i'll have period pains and becuase I'll have to sit around for 4 hours while they are in their training course. fair enough I reckon.
Archie came home this afternoon. That's good news. And Geevani's cooking dinner tonight. I think that's why I got a bad stomach. All this eating everyone else's food. My tummy had obviously become accustomed to Geevani/Ramanee/Archie cooking and can't accept anything less!
Oh and I did the most fabulous thing in the shower today. I shaved my legs. I was actually feeling ill everytime I looked at them. I feel like a woman again. Beautiful smooth tanned legs. Craig, youd love them!
Good night all
mx