its almost 4 am
i cant sleep. again.
i'm afraid. i'm afraid that i'll never find the answers i'm looking for.
never have i struggled so much.
why was it so easy before? how did i come to have such faith, and then lose it?
my worst fear, is that it was all in vain. i want it to be real.
but i cant help but think everything about religion is bullshit.
lies. a fairy tale.
i cant keep living like this. i feel like i'm going crazy. i've never seen myself act so obsessively.
i need to sleep. i have work at eight.
i'm afraid. i'm afraid that i'll never find the answers i'm looking for.
never have i struggled so much.
why was it so easy before? how did i come to have such faith, and then lose it?
my worst fear, is that it was all in vain. i want it to be real.
but i cant help but think everything about religion is bullshit.
lies. a fairy tale.
i cant keep living like this. i feel like i'm going crazy. i've never seen myself act so obsessively.
i need to sleep. i have work at eight.