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so, i haven't written in a long time, mostly cause of myspace, but, i've got to admit, the blogs in myspace just arent the same as livejournal. i feel like at my lj, i know a select group of good and trusted friends are reading my lj and i can say whatever i want to and not edit myself for myspace's reasons. so, here are some current events going on in my pathetic life...
*Junior year pretty much sucks. my classes are kinda pitiful. i think chem is gonna kill me, i will learn nothing in ap english, newspaper is insane and has too many people and i want to KILL nick swisher. my favorite class is probably either choir or creative writing, choir cause i sit by sevigny and laugh the whole time or creative writing cause i can sit there the whole class and write about jimmy the whole time and no one will say anything.
* I miss jordynne and alex and casey a whole lot. me and will are becoming good friends, sitting by each other in ap english, and that makes me happy cause will is just so cool. i signed his cast about 5 times, each time under a different alias.
* i attract really weird guys. i WAS talking to a guy from WoFoCo who asked me if i liked bush, and when i said no, he told me to "go to cananda." this boy also went out driving on country roads in the rain, went HILL JUMPING on wet country roads and then was stunned and surprised when the car crashed and he wound up with a broken arm. i should of just run away when he hit on me in applebee's. now i have a freshmen stalking me and another guy i'm so confused about, which leads me to my next point
* this guy who i happen to actually kinda like, all my friends hate, which is starting to stupidly color my perception. i don't know why they hate him other than for petty reasons. i read my parents the riot act when they start saying things about him, but i just sit there and listen to it while my friends sit there and ridicule him, even though they don't know him. it makes me really sad sometimes, but they don't know it.
* i miss jimmy. more than anyone knows. and it's so weird. but sometimes, i'll be sitting in creative writing and find my eyes welling up when i'm writing, cause i'm writing so feircely about something i want so bad and i cant have it. i feel like if i go back a little bit in time, to that one frame where we were in the jeep, talking and laughing, things would be ok. i wouldnt feel so empty and stupid all the time, frustrated all the time, i feel as if right now, everything is so mediocre.
now, that i've written that throughly depressing journal entry...ha...okay...time for me to go. but whew...
that update felt pretty good...