Jan 13, 2006 20:48
I found these the other day...funny how years after I wrote them I just happen to come across them, and it turns out they still mean the same thing...and by funny I mean incredibly depressing
Fall ~
Sometimes I want to smile but sometimes smiling, it just don't feel right
Sometimes I want to laugh but the only thing thats funny is the irony of my life
Sometimes I want to run but I feel like I'm held down by weight that I can't see
Sometimes I want to cry, but I been cryin so long all the tears have run out of me
And I said, "If you see me trip, will you catch me when I fall?"
You said, "Give me everything, or give me nothing at all."
I said "All I ever wanted was a promise to be true."
You said "All I ever needed was a little love from you"
And you say "no matter how hard we try, we just dont fit in each other lives"
I said "Why can't you try to just believe?"
You said "We just aren't meant to be."
The Rain ~
you can't hide from the rain..on a warm summer day you might be able to pretend that you forgot what it was like walking together hand in hand along the path, occasionally pausing for a passionate kiss underneath a tree, the sunlight sprinkling down around you through the branches overhead..and after awhile you might even be able to fool yourself into thinking that you dont feel alone and cold lying in your bed, even with that quilt wrapped around you. but when it rains, you can't help but remember how you used to kiss each other every time it rained, how you held her close to keep her warm, and how she looked so beautiful standing there, rain drops slowly rolling down her face as she looked at you with eyes you knew were filled with love. no, you can't hide from the rain. it makes you remember...and wont let you forget
Memories~
It still hurts, you know. Even after all this time. It’s the memories that get to you, you know. It’s when you drive by their house and see somebody else’s car parked out front, and you remember when it used to be your car parked there, and you know that their parents like that somebody else a whole lot more then they’d ever like you. And as you drive by, you happen to glance up at their bedroom window, and all you can think of is how it should be you sitting on the bed with them, staring into their eyes, and not somebody elses. It’s when you’re at work, or at school, or just out somewhere, and you catch a whiff of that perfume or cologne that they used to wear all the time, and you snap your eyes up and look around, expecting to see them right there in front of you. But all you see is some strange persons face, or nothing at all, if your lucky. But it’s already too late, because as soon as you pick up the aroma, memories and feelings come flooding back into you in a gigantic tidal wave of emotion. You can’t think striaght, you can’t see clearly, and all you are able to focus on is them, and the nights you spent together, and how they would wear that special scent just for you. Suddenly you can feel their lips softly press against yours, their hands running through your hair, the warmth of their body as they press against you. You smile as you remember that one special night that you had together, where nothing else in the world mattered but the two of you, and the two of you would be together forever. And that is when the strength drains out of your body, as if someone pulled out the plug in your sea of emotion. And it’s all you can do to keep from crumpling to the ground in tears, all too aware of your worthlessness and your stupidity and mistakes you’ve made, and how things will never go back to the way the once were. You begin to sob silently to yourself, thinking of how different everything could’ve been, how beautiful everything used to be, and how ugly they are now. It’s almost enough to make you wish it had never happened at all, but even though it still hurts, you still smile when you think about them. Yeah......it’s always the memories that get you.
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The Rain(2)
I still think of you when it rains
And I still miss you when it rains
And I wonder what went wrong, when everything had seemed so right when it rains
And I still need you when it rains
I remember holding you when it rained
I remember how you looked at me when it rained
Stealing kisses in the night, under the light of the moon when it rained
I rememeber how I loved you so, in the rain
And I still think ofyou when it rains
And I still miss you when it rains
I miss rainy days gone by, I look out my window and i sigh when it rains
And I still love you, when it rains