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[funkydanca]

woke up late today....grrr i just don't feel like waking up to waste my time at school...it's annoying..my classes we don't do shit and i could be reading or doing homework for a class that does matter or be working on my auditions for ocu...like i do have other more important things than coming to school and wasting my time....grr... anyway taking my mind off of the fact that i'm wasting my time...but yeah my graduation ring is pretty cool i like looking at it..my brother has my fall out boy cd i hope he gives it back today cuz like yeah i like it alot...i'm super worried about him i gave him a ride home after church last nite and we started dancing to dance dance from fall out boy and he started laughing his ass off at me...it was funny like i love to see him smile and be okay...even though i know he's not...like i wanna be there for him even though i'm not...i dunno it's a difficult situation...like i don't have time for most people but he's my brother and if he wanted to i'd make time for him....i do love him and i just hope he turns out okay and successful...last night he slept with the door open to his room...i think he's really traumatized by the whole death and his dreams...grr i hope things work out...anyway less than 4 weeks til my auditions..like i gotta be as good as i can be...i started this whole no eating after 6...yesterday i acutally didn't get hungry...i had other people on my mind** but yeah church was aight last nite..it's always fun with my dad and brother..my mom made a new friend who was 6 months and the biggest affro...hahah he was adorable..and kept wanting to touch my mom...she is good with babies i have to admit..i think she misses us being that size..she looks like she wants another one when things like that happen...i guess it would brighten her world up but i don't think she can physically have one...she's been going to the dr and doesn't talk about what goes on over there...we;ll see....anyway spring break for us in texas week...i dunno what's gonna happen..my mom said if i go she wants to be at the beach,, like not with us but atleast at the beach...is that cool? i mean i guess i wouldn't have a problem with that...i dunno we'll see..but yeah i'm gonna rest and work out during spring break cuz i so need to get my body in shape...i ran yesterday...after school...i worked out at dance tooo..crunches push ups arms....we'll see i hope the no eating after 6 works too....today i've had cereal wheat thins and that's it///for lunch i dunno what i'l have but yeah i hope i'll look decent in the leotard and tights...ahh i get nervous thinking about it...less than 4 weeks...ahh.. i gota read too for economics and english grrr i don't have time..i feel so busy but i guess i could make time...reading just loses my attention and i get sleepy...oh well anyway i guess that's it for now... i miss lauren so much we've been talking lately making sure everythings going good for her over in st louis and she's seeing what's up down here in the valley...i do miss our adventures and our memories...=`( but yeah it's all good...we're friends for life and that's that...anyway hope everyone's having a great day... laterz..

*andi*
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