i feel goddamn tired
not sleep wise, but just tired. have you ever got to where your jaw just aches from all the thinking youve been doing? i have my old laugh back. im starting to walk like im playing guitar all the time again. but things are very heavy right now. im at an extreme crossroads in my life and ive come to fucking livejournal to vent. im scared for the first time in a long time. you see i have something good, but im done with it. its just, too hard to keep up with and i want to feel a different thing. i know just exactly what it is that ive always wished to be a part of but its something im also scared to fuck up. im getting a car hopefully soon. and maybe in december i get to go to London and live for a week. i need some cigarettes then sleep. happy birthday XAL.