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I feel so sick right now.. my hearts going at 137 beats per min and i feel like i'm going to throw up. I know i should lower my dosage like she said, but I don't want to move backwards.. and somehow i hope that all this heart crap will kill me.. lol not that it could.. because what happens to me doesnt do damage.
I never thought the day would come when he would do this to me.. ugh and he can throw back all the excuses in the world, because thats what he always does about everything.. if i fucking told him the sun didnt come out today he would try and find excuses why so he didnt get blamed. If what he did to me was turned around .. god he would have been down my throat long before this point. But you know i just get to stand here, when i'm going through a really rough patch.. and watch him do these things to me. I guess that's what comes with being friends with him.. (if your a girl).. and he wonders why they all dont want to be friends in the end.. jeez. Making statements and then going back on them, and making them half statements so that "i wont get mad" but it makes me more mad, and then he probably bitches about me and yada yada. i hate boys
I went to my place last night with mike, jian, kat, amanda, kate (not me) and ted. Annnnnnnnnnd guess who would be there with 2837439 people after there stupid show.. GREG.. yay.. i'm glad he was sitting opposite me.. And allison was suppose to be witht them tonight.. so i was dissapointed not to see here at that table.. cuz that would have made my freakin night!