so i do it anyway?
that was me getting worked up over nothing.
grr.
i do trust that he really does like me. so why do i feel like he doesnt sometimes?
i take things he says so far out of context because im just waiting for the day he tells me hes "bored with me" or "done with me" or found some other girl. i feel like i know that day is going to come, i'll just never know when. but he doesnt know i feel that way. if he knew thats how i felt it'd all be over quick. my false confidence is what keeps him wanting me. the thing is, i dont believe half the shit i say to him... i hope that changes over the next six months.
its this fucking game. fucks with me. makes my head and heart confused.
bradley, please, what is it you really want from me?
grr.
i do trust that he really does like me. so why do i feel like he doesnt sometimes?
i take things he says so far out of context because im just waiting for the day he tells me hes "bored with me" or "done with me" or found some other girl. i feel like i know that day is going to come, i'll just never know when. but he doesnt know i feel that way. if he knew thats how i felt it'd all be over quick. my false confidence is what keeps him wanting me. the thing is, i dont believe half the shit i say to him... i hope that changes over the next six months.
its this fucking game. fucks with me. makes my head and heart confused.
bradley, please, what is it you really want from me?