Teenagers.
..for some reason, lately, I have absolutely NO tolerance for (most) people under the age of 18. Ugh. No, seriously. I'm going to sever all fucking ties with everyone I know who is not older than 18. I'm really fucking tired of having to deal with immature CHILDREN when I should be talking to people my own age who are more similar to me in terms of maturity and insight. This one girl (I've probably known for about four years), has literally NOT matured one fucking iota since the day I met her. I guess it's not surprising, though; I met her when I was fifteen and she told me she was sixteen, but later I found out she was actually twelve (and lied because there was a guy she wanted to date). So I'm now nineteen and she's sixteen (or maybe seventeen), and I just.. feel like I've completely outgrow her. In the last two or three months, I've just.. come to the realization that everything adults said about us when we were teenagers is 100% true. We were self-centered and self-righteous. We were know-it-alls. We were insensitive, and overdramatic, and whiny. Every minor problem was a potential crisis and OMG THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN TO ANYONE EVER, ANYWHERE. To be honest, I DON'T even fucking understand how my parents didn't beat the fuck out of us on a daily basis. Everything that everyone did was somehow a personal attack on us. A friend being friends with an enemy was the friend choosing them over us. It's just so fucking juvenile and I'm over it. Anyway, back to the girl (Ashley). So she's sixteen/seventeen to my nineteen, almost twenty, and just.. I don't know. All she does is whine about her garden-variety problems that EVERYFUCKINGBODY IN THE UNIVERSE experiences, and I can't handle it. BAWWW, my mom yelled at me. BAWWW, I'm grounded. BAWWW, my boyfriend broke up with me. BAWWW, I'm so fat and ugly. SUCK IT UP, PRINCESS. Seriously. EVERYONE goes through that shit, sorry. YOU are not specially entitled to be more upset and afflicted than your average person. YOUR BEST FRIEND DITCHING YOU =/= DEPRESSION. I've just come to certain realizations recently and I feel like I've outgrown a lot of people I know - and not just teenagers, either. People my age, too, who just stopped maturing where the rest of us continued. I literally can't even handle it anymore. I can't force myself to like them, to talk to them, to be interested in their melodramatic ploys for sympathy. If there's anything I've learned in the past year, it's to choose your battles, and that not every problem deserves an equal amount of reactionary energy. Arguing with mommy and little brother is NOT a fucking crisis, and it shouldn't require the same amount of energy as, I don't know, being mistreated by a teacher, for example. I just cannot fucking handle the amount of sheer energy it requires to dole out that amount of sympathy on a daily basis when that time could EASILY have been spent solving their problem instead. I'm not in high school anymore, and sometimes I feel like I still am because of all these fucking people dragging me down.
I think it's time to weed the garden again. Getting rid of Sammi was one of the best things I've done for my sanity in the past six months. Thank fucking God that may or may not exist for the people I actually CAN talk to about these things, who understand what I'm talking about and understand me. They're few and far between, but I do have a couple of them, and I truly appreciate them for it.
People to Prune:
Michael
Ashley
Sammi
Brandon
Mike (No, NOT you. Get over yourself.)
James
Jennifer
Tom
Alex
Ty