I'm sorry for everything...
I'm sorry for everything wrong i've done. Since the day i was born, it's been a chain reaction of unhappy events. Everything good that's come to me, i've learned to fuck up somehow, and then lose along the way. The people i learn to love, slowly disappear, and soon its as if i never had anyone in the first place anyway. I love all my friends, some particular ones, i love to death. I wish that they knew that. But i suppose its noone's fault but mine at failing to show them how i feel. I don't mean to be a selfish person, i could kill myself knowing i ever was. I don't mean to put my problems first as if they are most important, i just wish i didn't even have any to begin with. I would do anything for a friend over myself anyday, despite the consequences, all due to love. I'm just sorry it came off wrong, when i had decided not to. There are so many things i regret doing and saying, but there is no way, no matter how hard i try, to go back and undo them. If i could, i'd work the rest of my life fixing up the mistakes i've made... but is there even a point in doing that, when it wouldn't change how other's feel?
I'm sorry for everything i've put you through, and I'm sorry i did what i feared of doing: clinging on so hard, then letting go so roughly. I love you, i love all of you. I miss you so much, and i just want to try and make things right again. I swear, it's tearing me up inside, and i feel like a whole part of me is gone. I've been such a moron at the recent decisions i've made. 3 years, and 10 years... everyone knows the difference. I'm just sorry it took me so long to do the math. But for the rest of my life, all i can do is say how sorry i am for everything.
I'm sorry for everything i've put you through, and I'm sorry i did what i feared of doing: clinging on so hard, then letting go so roughly. I love you, i love all of you. I miss you so much, and i just want to try and make things right again. I swear, it's tearing me up inside, and i feel like a whole part of me is gone. I've been such a moron at the recent decisions i've made. 3 years, and 10 years... everyone knows the difference. I'm just sorry it took me so long to do the math. But for the rest of my life, all i can do is say how sorry i am for everything.