yeah yeah yeah...
...erin's posting. -dances- everyone party!
i was reading through my last most recent entries (which, yes, are from first semester last year) and yeah... that was really funny, cause none of anything i wrote about played out. the guy i liked i ended up hating for a while, we're chill now though. the classes that i was so excited about taking?? only one of them i ended up taking. its just funny how much things change i guess lol
so what's new now?
to start off with... boys blow
boys lead you on then drop you on your ass
HE told me he liked me
which was totes amazing
cause the boys i like NEVER EVER like me back
so i was super excited
things were going so great too
it was real adorable
HE KISSED ME
which was definitely ok with me
its not like i stopped it
but then...
"right now it's easy because you're right across the hall from me. but over break, it would actually take work"
sooo basically i'm not worth the effort you don't want to make to try and make it work
like really... even as friends... you're not going to try to see me even once over break??
yeah that's cool
whatever.
but then
there's this amazing poem that he wrote me
the most beautiful thing anyone's ever done for me
made me cry
how can someone who wrote that
say something like that
i don't understand!!
i know i didn't do anything wrong, but sometimes i feel like if i did more things right... or differently... or something then it would have turned out differently
RAWRGH
i'm so frustrated
part of me can't wait to go home for break
because i'm so done with all the crying thats been going on lately
nobody needs to cry that much
really
and half the time
you're completely overreacting
ik this time its legit
but you cry
all the time
so much
and it's not that i mind
it's that i mind not knowing what to say
and like
there's so much going on in my life right now
that part of me is like i can't believe you're crying about this
it could be so much worse for you
you don't even know.
and i need to get away from him
for this month
to get over him
to be able to get over what happened
yup
i was reading through my last most recent entries (which, yes, are from first semester last year) and yeah... that was really funny, cause none of anything i wrote about played out. the guy i liked i ended up hating for a while, we're chill now though. the classes that i was so excited about taking?? only one of them i ended up taking. its just funny how much things change i guess lol
so what's new now?
to start off with... boys blow
boys lead you on then drop you on your ass
HE told me he liked me
which was totes amazing
cause the boys i like NEVER EVER like me back
so i was super excited
things were going so great too
it was real adorable
HE KISSED ME
which was definitely ok with me
its not like i stopped it
but then...
"right now it's easy because you're right across the hall from me. but over break, it would actually take work"
sooo basically i'm not worth the effort you don't want to make to try and make it work
like really... even as friends... you're not going to try to see me even once over break??
yeah that's cool
whatever.
but then
there's this amazing poem that he wrote me
the most beautiful thing anyone's ever done for me
made me cry
how can someone who wrote that
say something like that
i don't understand!!
i know i didn't do anything wrong, but sometimes i feel like if i did more things right... or differently... or something then it would have turned out differently
RAWRGH
i'm so frustrated
part of me can't wait to go home for break
because i'm so done with all the crying thats been going on lately
nobody needs to cry that much
really
and half the time
you're completely overreacting
ik this time its legit
but you cry
all the time
so much
and it's not that i mind
it's that i mind not knowing what to say
and like
there's so much going on in my life right now
that part of me is like i can't believe you're crying about this
it could be so much worse for you
you don't even know.
and i need to get away from him
for this month
to get over him
to be able to get over what happened
yup