despairity is a bad thing.

[fruitcakebob]

Interesting. The whole ex boyfriend situation. You can't win, ever.
Fight.
Fight.
Fight.
He wants me back, we play nice nice, i come back to school, we fight.
Fight.
Fight.
Fight.
Is this all i will ever be? I really am not looking for another relationship, at, all. I want to just have the boy i loved and cared about back to me. But no, men have to turn into assholes, stop doing all the romantic things they once did, pretend it's okay to start verbally abuseing you in fights, so then you start yelling obscenities back and before you know it your both calling eachother names that neither of you appreciate, and by the end of the phone call you want to kill him and tell him you can't seem to exsist without him at the same time.

I'm fucked up in the head. I shouldn't even be talking to him. But i can't let it go. Is it because i really do love him, or is it that i hate being alone? He was my best friend. I saw him everyday. The relationship we have now that we're not even in a relationship is so fucked up.

I want to go back to everything.
to before everything.
Wipe it all out.