It has begun.

[fruitcakebob]

Lately things have been pretty shitty as many of you could have guessed. I guess all good things have to come to an end eventually though. I am taking all of this very well i think. Sia really has helped me through alot of this. I just listen to her music and feel relaxed and okay. I wake up and each day feel a little bit better than the day before. Without heartache how would we know how a hearthrob feels? These things in life happen, and although i amongst many wish they wouldn't, i am glad they do. The lessons i have learned throughout the past couple of years never cease to amaze me. I feel as though i have grown in so many ways. I may not be the most mature of people, but boy do i feel as though i've gone through plenty of tough lessons! I just need to take my own advice sometimes. Love doesn't end. This i know. I just need to be by myself right now. I need to focus. Im doing good. Im motivated and feel empowered. I had an amazing weekend, went out with some amazing friends and just had alot of good laughs. I guess friends really can get you through just about anything. My roomates have really been there for me, it's quite comforting. I feel loved. Isn't that what i wanted in the first place? How ironic.

:)

living in your head without anything to numb you...
living on the edge without anything to numb you...
it has to end to begin.
begin and end today.