i hurt, therefore i am.*
The past two weeks were unbelievably overwhelming. Part of it was because of my own bad decisions and poor planning (for getting essays and assignments completed), and the other, more draining part, happened without my control.
Two nights ago I finally slept without worry. I woke up without a knot in my stomach, I did not feel like vomitting, my eyes did not burn, and my head did not throb. It was a night when I did not have to worry about school, and when I knew that my Thriller was no longer suffering. And I felt safe, because I had a shoulder to lean on.
It is amazing how much a "good luck" can sound like a prayer. It was a welcome change from those rushed and impersonal e-mails I always get from professors and TAs, when my Religious Studies professor said it after giving me an extension on my paper. I was also humbled when the taxi driver said it after dropping me off at the animal hospital.
It is also amazing how much kindness people are capable of. Dave let Adam borrow his car, and Adam dropped everything and came to me quickly without hesitation. My manager let me off work. Everyone at the vet hospital and emergency clinic were all very nice. Anyone I talked to about it shared some sympathy.
I will probably fail Aesthetics and have a horrid grade for The Information Society,
but thank goodness I still have a chance for Health, Healing and Religion.
*I believe this is from White Oleander
Two nights ago I finally slept without worry. I woke up without a knot in my stomach, I did not feel like vomitting, my eyes did not burn, and my head did not throb. It was a night when I did not have to worry about school, and when I knew that my Thriller was no longer suffering. And I felt safe, because I had a shoulder to lean on.
It is amazing how much a "good luck" can sound like a prayer. It was a welcome change from those rushed and impersonal e-mails I always get from professors and TAs, when my Religious Studies professor said it after giving me an extension on my paper. I was also humbled when the taxi driver said it after dropping me off at the animal hospital.
It is also amazing how much kindness people are capable of. Dave let Adam borrow his car, and Adam dropped everything and came to me quickly without hesitation. My manager let me off work. Everyone at the vet hospital and emergency clinic were all very nice. Anyone I talked to about it shared some sympathy.
I will probably fail Aesthetics and have a horrid grade for The Information Society,
but thank goodness I still have a chance for Health, Healing and Religion.
*I believe this is from White Oleander