As the world falls down
Last time, you heard from me, I was still living with my sister.
Much has changed:
1. I live in my own apartment
2. The D-douchebag is no longer in my life.
3. I'm not a virgin anymore.
4. I have a good friend up here.
5. I had sex with a second person and.... guh, it was not smart.
6. I got drunk by myself today and cried.
The biggest lesson I need to learn in the <3 department is to take things slow. It's not that hard to do for normal people, but for me, it's always so hard. I get so fucking lonely and use to being by myself, that when a nice guy comes around, I completely freak out and fuck things up.
I'm done with that.
Right now, I'm currently dealing with the repercussions of my last love rondezvous. Bah.
I mostly just need to focus on me and making myself happy right now. BILLS! All that joyous stuff. Hugs and cuddles will come along for me someday when it's right. For now, I'll stick to hugging myself...
...i've gone out of my way. big blank slate everyday. big blank canvas staring at me everyday. revenge....