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my grandpa can't do chemo anymore, because he has a heart murmur and the mass is decreasing slowly and slowly. they did a different chemo, and he got really sick from it and made him worse. he's at home now and is on this thing all the time, and after that in two or three weeks, i dont know what's happening. my uncle al on the other hand is going to a different doctor tomorrow, to see about getting some of the liquid taken out of his tumors. he's also going back to work this week, which is really good. hes feeling a lot better which is really weird since he should have died a while ago. it kind of makes you think that miracles can happen. and if they can that would be a miracle in itself. i love them both a lot and it would be weird if they died and id have to talk about them in the third person like they didn't exist, which they wouldn't, which would suck. and i dont think i could handle going threw all the memories in my head, i think it would drive me nuts.

anyway, on a lighter note. school has been okay, actually. we have like a month and a week left, im so excited. tanners b-day is on the 30th, and if anyone had any suggestions for a guy turning 18, that would help a alot. me and kait and jessica went to a party on saturday, i got drunk for the second time. i had fun, kind of. my two frieneds almost got raped though, and i felt bad. there were too many people at this party, and the cops got called and everything, but whatever we still had fun. until these LBK members came and started crap and started delaing ecstacy. anyway. mothers day i got my mom presents and we had thai food, it was really great. then we just hung out all day.

im on my period right now and i feel really shitty so im going to go lay down.