Otherworld
Nyeh. Last night was a little freaky. Hallucinations and stuff.
I know now.... that this feeling I get... its like hunger, but not. Its a warning sign. I often get that feeling when I miss a dose of my meds, only this time it happened without me missing anything.
I notice that I often get episodes when I am on my period... I suppose I should tell my pdoc that.
So anyway. I hallucinate mostly visual stuff. It's like seeing another world over this one. Otherworld is kinda transparent in the light, the things there, are sorta like glass, there but not there. But in the dark, I can see it completely. I can turn out the lights in my room and not see darkness, I see otherworld. There is a dragon or serpent twisting through the sky, thin white smoke in the air, I see stars and a moon. Spirits live there. One was standing over me, a dark shape with glowing white eyes. I got a sense that it was male.
Sometimes I put my arm over my eyes to see into otherworld properly in the darkness I create, but with the light still on in my room. I was doing that last night. A spirit rushed at me, I quickly moved my arm away so I was in the light again, and said "not real not real not real"
i felt sort of like i had been poisoned with a hallucinogenic drug. my legs felt weird and I couldnt walk properly. i could see the smoke in the light and it was giving me electric shocks.
and i get hypersensitive to touch. I can feel all the dirt and such on my hands, and on my feet.
it is weird.
I know now.... that this feeling I get... its like hunger, but not. Its a warning sign. I often get that feeling when I miss a dose of my meds, only this time it happened without me missing anything.
I notice that I often get episodes when I am on my period... I suppose I should tell my pdoc that.
So anyway. I hallucinate mostly visual stuff. It's like seeing another world over this one. Otherworld is kinda transparent in the light, the things there, are sorta like glass, there but not there. But in the dark, I can see it completely. I can turn out the lights in my room and not see darkness, I see otherworld. There is a dragon or serpent twisting through the sky, thin white smoke in the air, I see stars and a moon. Spirits live there. One was standing over me, a dark shape with glowing white eyes. I got a sense that it was male.
Sometimes I put my arm over my eyes to see into otherworld properly in the darkness I create, but with the light still on in my room. I was doing that last night. A spirit rushed at me, I quickly moved my arm away so I was in the light again, and said "not real not real not real"
i felt sort of like i had been poisoned with a hallucinogenic drug. my legs felt weird and I couldnt walk properly. i could see the smoke in the light and it was giving me electric shocks.
and i get hypersensitive to touch. I can feel all the dirt and such on my hands, and on my feet.
it is weird.