crap
I'm having a bad week and it's only Tuesday... I'm supposed to be on vacation but I'm in the office anyway...
I'm working 6 days of my vacation and taking two long weekends instead of two weeks, I'm trying to save some days for visiting the family and friends around the Holidays and as I look at my finances I should have just skipped the vacation altogether. I'm only camping it's not like I'm doing anything really cool but even that is really too much for my pocket book between then tent I had to replace this year ($80) and the Camping fees ($150) and the fact I'm going to have to put gas in the car and I have $89 to last me the next week and a half till I get paid again. One of the people that won an E-bay auction still hasn't paid or contacted me about the items and I'm going away this weekend so I guess if she's in a hurry she's screwed by her own lack of getting around to paying for things.
I should have skipped the trip back to NYC in July but I enjoyed myself but again it was money I could have used to take care of other things.
It's not easy living on just half your after taxes salary... I really hate that I got stuck with more then $10,000 of my ex's debt when he declared bankruptcy. I still haven't heard on the house foreclosure or if that is still protected in his bankruptcy, I really hope it gets settled soon. I'm tired of that looming over me too. Oh and on that note I ran into the EX on Saturday, he stared at me and I ignored him and then found someplace else to be.
I think that when I get back from my part time vacation I may just cancel my cable, I already canceled my gym membership and rely on the internet for TV and entertainment... and I'll probably start looking for a second job. As much as I can afford to only have one job it's going to take another year to get out of debt at this rate and I want to have a small bit of savings when I try to re-locate.
I'm still not sure where I am going, as much as I'd love to go back to NY I don't think I can swing it financially at least not without getting a job that pays better then what I do now. I was checking out the average salary for what I do in NY and the base pay has gone down so I'd be making less then I was when I left 10 years ago and just slightly more then I make here but the big thing is rent here is $295.00 for a 2 bedroom here if I move to NY more then 70% of what I make would go for rent unless I move into my parent's or sister's house. I can't deal with that, my lifestyle and my parent's don't mesh and my sister has 3 kids and as much as I love them that it's going to work for me either...
It's looking like I'm either stuck here or I need to find someplace else. I'm just having a melt down sort of day... One of my Aunts died yesterday and I found out via Facebook... not that I was really close to her but there are times I wonder if I'm so far away I get forgotten about. I have things I want to do tonight for me and things I need to do so I can head back out to Pennsic tomorrow. I really don't feel like dealing with any of it. I almost want to stay home and just fuck around the internet and maybe add to my stories so I can post them soon. I know once I get things done and get back out there I'll be with friends and have fun but really this isn't working out for me, but then as much as nothing ever works out for me I'm still doing a lot better then a lot of people I know so I shouldn't complain. It's just I've helped out, taken care of and financially supported so many people since I was in my teens and I can't catch a break, I should have built up a lot of good karma and I seem to get treated like some deity out there hates me and enjoys screwing up my life.
I still have to run out and get eggs and pecans... I am making a couple of pecan pies... at least that should make things better if only superficially.
In other news I really like the select tags thingy... it makes tagging so easy.
so right now I'm going to end this, I have an hour and twenty minutes left here and I think I'm going to try and find some sort of angsty or h/c fic to indulge in...
I'm working 6 days of my vacation and taking two long weekends instead of two weeks, I'm trying to save some days for visiting the family and friends around the Holidays and as I look at my finances I should have just skipped the vacation altogether. I'm only camping it's not like I'm doing anything really cool but even that is really too much for my pocket book between then tent I had to replace this year ($80) and the Camping fees ($150) and the fact I'm going to have to put gas in the car and I have $89 to last me the next week and a half till I get paid again. One of the people that won an E-bay auction still hasn't paid or contacted me about the items and I'm going away this weekend so I guess if she's in a hurry she's screwed by her own lack of getting around to paying for things.
I should have skipped the trip back to NYC in July but I enjoyed myself but again it was money I could have used to take care of other things.
It's not easy living on just half your after taxes salary... I really hate that I got stuck with more then $10,000 of my ex's debt when he declared bankruptcy. I still haven't heard on the house foreclosure or if that is still protected in his bankruptcy, I really hope it gets settled soon. I'm tired of that looming over me too. Oh and on that note I ran into the EX on Saturday, he stared at me and I ignored him and then found someplace else to be.
I think that when I get back from my part time vacation I may just cancel my cable, I already canceled my gym membership and rely on the internet for TV and entertainment... and I'll probably start looking for a second job. As much as I can afford to only have one job it's going to take another year to get out of debt at this rate and I want to have a small bit of savings when I try to re-locate.
I'm still not sure where I am going, as much as I'd love to go back to NY I don't think I can swing it financially at least not without getting a job that pays better then what I do now. I was checking out the average salary for what I do in NY and the base pay has gone down so I'd be making less then I was when I left 10 years ago and just slightly more then I make here but the big thing is rent here is $295.00 for a 2 bedroom here if I move to NY more then 70% of what I make would go for rent unless I move into my parent's or sister's house. I can't deal with that, my lifestyle and my parent's don't mesh and my sister has 3 kids and as much as I love them that it's going to work for me either...
It's looking like I'm either stuck here or I need to find someplace else. I'm just having a melt down sort of day... One of my Aunts died yesterday and I found out via Facebook... not that I was really close to her but there are times I wonder if I'm so far away I get forgotten about. I have things I want to do tonight for me and things I need to do so I can head back out to Pennsic tomorrow. I really don't feel like dealing with any of it. I almost want to stay home and just fuck around the internet and maybe add to my stories so I can post them soon. I know once I get things done and get back out there I'll be with friends and have fun but really this isn't working out for me, but then as much as nothing ever works out for me I'm still doing a lot better then a lot of people I know so I shouldn't complain. It's just I've helped out, taken care of and financially supported so many people since I was in my teens and I can't catch a break, I should have built up a lot of good karma and I seem to get treated like some deity out there hates me and enjoys screwing up my life.
I still have to run out and get eggs and pecans... I am making a couple of pecan pies... at least that should make things better if only superficially.
In other news I really like the select tags thingy... it makes tagging so easy.
so right now I'm going to end this, I have an hour and twenty minutes left here and I think I'm going to try and find some sort of angsty or h/c fic to indulge in...