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Sometimes I get scared.
To think my life could be over by the time I'm 22 scares me.
The doctors don't understand what that does to a 16 year old.
I'm looking at colleges- MED SCHOOL!
Future dreams and hopes and kids names and wedding dresses.
For what?
For the 65% chance it's going to be gone?
That when I'm 22 I'll be incoherent for the rest of my life?
Sitting in a chair with some paper gown on, coloring?
Sometimes I get scared.
I don't want to see myself waste away like that.
But once it starts you can't stop it, help it, or heal it.
And you spend 4 years watching yourself basically die.
So sometimes- everyone now and then. I get really scared.
To think my life could be over by the time I'm 22 scares me.
The doctors don't understand what that does to a 16 year old.
I'm looking at colleges- MED SCHOOL!
Future dreams and hopes and kids names and wedding dresses.
For what?
For the 65% chance it's going to be gone?
That when I'm 22 I'll be incoherent for the rest of my life?
Sitting in a chair with some paper gown on, coloring?
Sometimes I get scared.
I don't want to see myself waste away like that.
But once it starts you can't stop it, help it, or heal it.
And you spend 4 years watching yourself basically die.
So sometimes- everyone now and then. I get really scared.