First Update in forever!
Wow, ok so its been over 4 months since I've updated. Does that give you any clue as to how busy i've been. This semester has been insane......I feel extrememly overworked and I just don't want to study anymore. Unfortunetely finals period is not a good time to feel that way.....oh well, just have to make it through one more week! I'm glad the year is coming to an end.....I just need a break from rochester and the people here. I was talking with anish tonight about how I feel like I need a new group of friends at school. Things aren't the same as they used to be and I just don't feel the same closeness that I used to. Lydia and I are still close and things are still good with katie, but I feel as though things will Susan have changed so much from what they were. I feel like she's a different person and she's always in some sort of fowl mood now. She gets mad at me for not being around when I'm studying but when I do hang out with the group, they don't do anything!! It makes me so mad.....all they do is sit around and talk about topics that I have no interest in. I wish that they would understand that I wasn't happy with my grades for the beginning of the semester and I'm working hard to make up for it now. I also hate the way that she snaps at people....I think she has a lot of unresolved anger and doesn't know how to handle it. I don't appreciate it when she takes it out on me and never even apologizes. I let these things slip, but sometimes I just want to tell her that I don't like the person that she's become. It makes me wonder if I would have been friends with any of these people had we not been on the same hall together last year. They can be so judgemental and insensitive sometimes. I feel like once they form an opinion of someone it never changes. Take for example, this guy Marc who is in my quartet. Last year they thought he was really sketchy, but this year I've gotten to know marc pretty well and I things he's really nice and we get along very well. Whenever I mention Marc they immediately start saying bad stuff about him, when they don't even know him. The other thing that bothers me is about Mike. Mike and I try to have weekly dinners and they can't seem to comprehend the concept that the two of us can still try to be friends. Have the ever heard of forgiveness and realizing that people make mistakes, but that doesn't mean that you should hold a grudge agaist them forever. The thing that really made me re-evaluate who I was spending my time with was how they reacted towards one of my best friends who was dealing with depression. They told her she was overreacting to the situation. If they had taken time to really try to understand what this individual was going through they would see that things were serious and that they could have been supportive to her instead of turning her away. I feel like such a horrible person for saying all of this, but its how I feel. It makes me sad to see some of these friendships fall apart, but I feel like there are people that I would rather spend my time with.
So, I think that I really want to be a teacher. The orgo workshop I lead has been simply an amazing experience and I love everything about it....getting to teach and my kids are wonderful. One of the girls in the workshop, colleen, is really my twin....we have so many things in common its scary and she is becoming one of my best friends. There is another student campbell who is really cool too....he and colleen remind me so much of Jason and I. Then there is another guy eric who is so smart and so enthusiastic about chemistry that its scary. I like knowing that I'm making a difference and helping the students.....its makes me feel so good. Its really dorky, but I love holding review sessions. Our last workshop was this week and we all went out to lunch afterwards...I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to do this again next year! I was obviously meant to be a teacher.....we'll see what happens
For those of you who don't know I'm going to Georgia this summer to do research at Berry College(precious name, right?) I leave on may 30th and get back on august 4th. It should be an adventure for sure, though I am a bit nervous. Anyone who feels the desire to go south should definitely come and visit me!
Ok, well this is getting extremely long and I need to go study. I can't wait to see you all in about 2 weeks.....believe me, I'm counting the days till I get to come home. I love you all!
So, I think that I really want to be a teacher. The orgo workshop I lead has been simply an amazing experience and I love everything about it....getting to teach and my kids are wonderful. One of the girls in the workshop, colleen, is really my twin....we have so many things in common its scary and she is becoming one of my best friends. There is another student campbell who is really cool too....he and colleen remind me so much of Jason and I. Then there is another guy eric who is so smart and so enthusiastic about chemistry that its scary. I like knowing that I'm making a difference and helping the students.....its makes me feel so good. Its really dorky, but I love holding review sessions. Our last workshop was this week and we all went out to lunch afterwards...I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to do this again next year! I was obviously meant to be a teacher.....we'll see what happens
For those of you who don't know I'm going to Georgia this summer to do research at Berry College(precious name, right?) I leave on may 30th and get back on august 4th. It should be an adventure for sure, though I am a bit nervous. Anyone who feels the desire to go south should definitely come and visit me!
Ok, well this is getting extremely long and I need to go study. I can't wait to see you all in about 2 weeks.....believe me, I'm counting the days till I get to come home. I love you all!