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So its been forever since I've updated this thing, and I should be in bed right now, but I have too much running through my head so I'm not tired at all. Even though I've been quite busy this weekend, the island has also seemed terribly lonely. I generally enjoy peace and quiet, but this presents a problem when you don't feel like being alone. I hung out with some of the other interns, but both of them had their girlfriends up this weekend so I kinda felt like a tag along even though they did a really good job trying to include me. On the bright side though, I've gotten a lot of time to think about all sorts of things.
First of all grad school scares me. I feel like if I go into a career of research its going to consume me completely and I'm not going to have a life. I'll just spend hours slaving away in the lab. I see Dr. Booth who works probably 10-12 hours everyday. I saw myself get sucked in already this last semester at Berry. My last week I spent about 50 hours in the lab and managed to study and take finals in between. I don't think I want to live that life. It also makes me sad that nothing can be studied simply for the goal of learning something new. In order to get any sort of funding you have to somehow link your project to having an impact on humans. So much environmental research gets overshadowed by biomedical stuff. It makes me sad to think how in the next 10 years Sapelo and other barrier islands like it will mostly likely be fully developed and the relatively pristine environments gone forever. I guess you can't expect much from a state where a good portion of people find recycling a foreign concept.
Communication is such an essential part of all relationships, whether it be with friends, family, or significant others. Why is it sometimes so hard to express how you feel? Why do some people think that saying nothing at all is better than saying something when a situation is hard to confront or the other person won't want to hear what you have to say. Avoiding doesn't solve anything. I wish I could express what I am thinking and feeling more effectively.
Ok, well I'm starting to get tired so I think I may retire for the evening. Goodnight all!
First of all grad school scares me. I feel like if I go into a career of research its going to consume me completely and I'm not going to have a life. I'll just spend hours slaving away in the lab. I see Dr. Booth who works probably 10-12 hours everyday. I saw myself get sucked in already this last semester at Berry. My last week I spent about 50 hours in the lab and managed to study and take finals in between. I don't think I want to live that life. It also makes me sad that nothing can be studied simply for the goal of learning something new. In order to get any sort of funding you have to somehow link your project to having an impact on humans. So much environmental research gets overshadowed by biomedical stuff. It makes me sad to think how in the next 10 years Sapelo and other barrier islands like it will mostly likely be fully developed and the relatively pristine environments gone forever. I guess you can't expect much from a state where a good portion of people find recycling a foreign concept.
Communication is such an essential part of all relationships, whether it be with friends, family, or significant others. Why is it sometimes so hard to express how you feel? Why do some people think that saying nothing at all is better than saying something when a situation is hard to confront or the other person won't want to hear what you have to say. Avoiding doesn't solve anything. I wish I could express what I am thinking and feeling more effectively.
Ok, well I'm starting to get tired so I think I may retire for the evening. Goodnight all!