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It's a strange feeling, the feeling that I burrows inside me.
I thought I had it all, and it seems that now I have nothing.
I know that isn't true. Rather, I know I should know that it isn't true.
However I find that it is easy to believe that when you see others who seem to have it all going for them, when they should be as distressed as you.
I spend my weeknights working and getting things done to create a home for myself.
I spend my weekdays going to class, but most of the time I am not mentally there.
Only the physical remains.
My weekends are spent at work, selling merchandise to foreigners who are amazing by sparkle and shine.
I try to look forward to the little things in life.
I am trying to kill this feeling, but when you are so severely infected and have no antibiotic to help you sustain, it is a very difficult thing that you are fighting.
To not go all emo, I am happy. It may not be all the time, it may only be for very small amounts of time, but I am happy. I am going home this weekend. It is weird to think that I have not been home since the middle of June. I think it is going to be a very therapeutic thing for me. Breanne, Jenna, Jessica, possibly Jen, and myself have made a bunch of plans, and I fully intend on playing them all out. There will probably be documentation of it somewhere on facebook next week. I hope that everyone is well.
I thought I had it all, and it seems that now I have nothing.
I know that isn't true. Rather, I know I should know that it isn't true.
However I find that it is easy to believe that when you see others who seem to have it all going for them, when they should be as distressed as you.
I spend my weeknights working and getting things done to create a home for myself.
I spend my weekdays going to class, but most of the time I am not mentally there.
Only the physical remains.
My weekends are spent at work, selling merchandise to foreigners who are amazing by sparkle and shine.
I try to look forward to the little things in life.
I am trying to kill this feeling, but when you are so severely infected and have no antibiotic to help you sustain, it is a very difficult thing that you are fighting.
To not go all emo, I am happy. It may not be all the time, it may only be for very small amounts of time, but I am happy. I am going home this weekend. It is weird to think that I have not been home since the middle of June. I think it is going to be a very therapeutic thing for me. Breanne, Jenna, Jessica, possibly Jen, and myself have made a bunch of plans, and I fully intend on playing them all out. There will probably be documentation of it somewhere on facebook next week. I hope that everyone is well.