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things here still suck. i think dad is going to apply for a job as a mailman :/ ...kind of odd, but if he gets it at least its a job, right?
i decided that i'm going to build a couple types of bridge for the physics project, test which one works best, and use that design. i've basocally finished one that seems like it should work fairly well. krazy glue is my new best friend. partly because i think it is permanently all over my hands. so while we're stuck with each other, we might as well be friends.
my spanish class now consists of like 8 people. i may now actually have to participate.
apparently i once again qualify to attempt to get into NHS. miss leavitt for some reason knew who i was...possibly she remembered me from when i fought with her last year? i almost wanted to have the attitude of "just go screw yourself, please" this year as far as that stuff goes, but unfortunately i care too much. so now i can't remember everything i have done since freshman year because it was too long ago.
we had a pasta dinner for field hockey tonight. for some reason ashlyn's mom made lasagna for that instead of the usual spaghetti, but it was amazing. if i smell like garlic tomorrow from the garlic bread, i apologize.
we play canton tomorrow. i'm pumped. i wanna win sooooo bad.
i think mr mark is ready to kill me because i've havent had my head where it needs to be to play properly. he knows about nanny, but i havent mentioned any of the other things to him. he might be less pissed if i just explain things, but having an explanation doesn't constitute a reasonable excuse, and it still definitely doesn't excuse how i've been playing. i don't wan it to. its my own damn fault. not to mention that i'm afraid to go after the ball like i used to do cuz i did that one time in indoor for canton league and totally got hit in the mouth. hard. i really don't want to repeat that, but i need to get over it.
i'm completely ignoring the fact that i have homework to do, and almost care. sometimes i just need to do this to settle myself down enough to do anything. i wasn't at home today for like thirteen and a half hours. i love that. i hate being at home. i would stay out all the time if i could and just come home to eat and sleep.
i'm cold. i miss summer, when it was warm, and i didnt have like 3 hours of homework every night.
mom keeps threatening to throw out everything in my room if i dont get it clean by the end of the month. im still trying to figure out if she would actually follow through with it this time. she might actually be in a bad enough mood to do it these days. if she does, it might just be easier to pick up the important things and let her take care of everything else and just throw it away. thats kink of the lazy bitchy way to deal wothit, but i just really dont feel like cleaning. at all. ever.
things here still suck. i think dad is going to apply for a job as a mailman :/ ...kind of odd, but if he gets it at least its a job, right?
i decided that i'm going to build a couple types of bridge for the physics project, test which one works best, and use that design. i've basocally finished one that seems like it should work fairly well. krazy glue is my new best friend. partly because i think it is permanently all over my hands. so while we're stuck with each other, we might as well be friends.
my spanish class now consists of like 8 people. i may now actually have to participate.
apparently i once again qualify to attempt to get into NHS. miss leavitt for some reason knew who i was...possibly she remembered me from when i fought with her last year? i almost wanted to have the attitude of "just go screw yourself, please" this year as far as that stuff goes, but unfortunately i care too much. so now i can't remember everything i have done since freshman year because it was too long ago.
we had a pasta dinner for field hockey tonight. for some reason ashlyn's mom made lasagna for that instead of the usual spaghetti, but it was amazing. if i smell like garlic tomorrow from the garlic bread, i apologize.
we play canton tomorrow. i'm pumped. i wanna win sooooo bad.
i think mr mark is ready to kill me because i've havent had my head where it needs to be to play properly. he knows about nanny, but i havent mentioned any of the other things to him. he might be less pissed if i just explain things, but having an explanation doesn't constitute a reasonable excuse, and it still definitely doesn't excuse how i've been playing. i don't wan it to. its my own damn fault. not to mention that i'm afraid to go after the ball like i used to do cuz i did that one time in indoor for canton league and totally got hit in the mouth. hard. i really don't want to repeat that, but i need to get over it.
i'm completely ignoring the fact that i have homework to do, and almost care. sometimes i just need to do this to settle myself down enough to do anything. i wasn't at home today for like thirteen and a half hours. i love that. i hate being at home. i would stay out all the time if i could and just come home to eat and sleep.
i'm cold. i miss summer, when it was warm, and i didnt have like 3 hours of homework every night.
mom keeps threatening to throw out everything in my room if i dont get it clean by the end of the month. im still trying to figure out if she would actually follow through with it this time. she might actually be in a bad enough mood to do it these days. if she does, it might just be easier to pick up the important things and let her take care of everything else and just throw it away. thats kink of the lazy bitchy way to deal wothit, but i just really dont feel like cleaning. at all. ever.