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[fromheavencame]

[Private]I've been thinking, and maybe it isn't my time to be here. Not right now, I don't think. I'm driving a wedge between them, and I can't stand the thought of doing that. Friends are supposed to come before lovers, that's just how it is. They've been friends for years, and though I'm sure they've fought before, it doesn't seem they've fought

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[sonofsarek]

I could assist you in preparing the necessary paperwork for entry and sponsor your application if necessary.

Your request is somewhat surprising. May I ask as to what prompted an interest in the academy suddenly?

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[fromheavencame]

That means a lot to me, Spock. I wouldn't ask you if I didn't think that I would do well, but I figure with the situation and all...a bit of help would be fitting.

I...Well it's not like you're going to go talk to them I'm causing more trouble than I am good, put simply.

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[sonofsarek]

Your efforts on the ship and ability to adapt to the situation are an indication of your ability to succeed at the academy.

Trouble? I was unaware of any discourse perpetuated by your actions on the ship.

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[fromheavencame]

Thank you, Spock. That's what I'm aiming for. I just...tend to know how things work, and that helps. A lot.

Well, as you know the Captain reassigned me to Scotty, and as the technology is so advanced compared to what I'm used to, I feel that I am more of a burden than a help.

There are also...other things, but I don't think you want to hear that.

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[sonofsarek]

You are welcome. That is a useful skill to have.

Yes, I was aware of the reassignment however I was uncertain of the cause. You do not need to share that information if you are not comfortable doing so.

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[fromheavencame]

Very much so. I've been able to do so since I was a kid. Is that something normal? Just...looking at something, and understanding how they work, and are put together?

Could I tell you? In confidence. And friendly. Because...well without Ben here I don't have anyone. Not really.

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[sonofsarek]

Having and understanding of things once they've been studied and examined is not out of the ordinary, but understanding their intricacies and function without much prior exposure is exceptional.

If you wish. I will not utter your issues to others.

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[fromheavencame]

Obviously things can be taught, but that's just it...I don't need that, often. It's good to have, but what I did on Earth...I never had any formal training or anything of the likes. And that went for most things I tinkered with.

Right.

I'm driving a wedge between Jim and Len, and I can't bare the weight of the guilt from that. They...need time together. Without me here.

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[fromheavencame]

Obviously things can be taught, but that's just it...I don't need that, often. It's good to have, but what I did on Earth...I never had any formal training or anything of the likes. And that went for most things I tinkered with.

Right.

I'm driving a wedge between Jim and Len, and I can't bare the weight of the guilt from that. They...need time together. Without me here.

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[sonofsarek]

Fascinating. Additional training provided by the academy should advance your understanding of technology and enhance your skill.

I have noticed a change in the interpersonal exchanges between the Captain and the Doctor, however I uncertain if you are the cause. With them it is entirely possible that they have only themselves to blame.

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[fromheavencame]

It is, as is this ship, and everything about this time. And that's why I want to learn more, so that I can be the best. Not that I'll ever be as good as Scotty or anything, but the best I can be at least.

Jim told me he loved me. [:| Lineface, Gabriel has it over in his quarters] Jim reassigned me so that we would see less of each other, which is dumb, since that's just pushing your problems aside when you're going to have to deal with them sooner or later anyway. Len found out after the reassignment, and he's yelled at me for not telling, but that's understandable. However, that's lead to a certain amount of tension between them. Len's not happy because Jim's not happy, and Jim's not happy because of me. So it's my fault.

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[sonofsarek]

All the more reason for me to sponsor your application.

[Spock's over here mentally facepalming.] The Captain is not skilled in handling situations of this nature and the Doctor is not well versed in containing his emotional reactions. You are hardly to blame.

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[fromheavencame]

And that means the world to me.

[Ugh humans~] No. They're not. Either of them. And it's shit. Len seems to think I'm going to run off with Jim or something like that. I feel like I should just go out and get a tattoo with his name across my heart/chest/ass or something to get it through his thick skull. Visual aids usually help, don't they?

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[sonofsarek]

Visual aid's effectiveness is dependent on the individual's learning style. [lol Vulcans~] The good Doctor is perhaps one of the most paranoid individuals I know. This is most likely contributing to his excessive worry.

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[fromheavencame]

He'd probably kill me.

I just...don't know why he's paranoid with me. I've left my entire life for him. Doesn't that say anything? Because I think it should say everything.

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[sonofsarek]

I am certain he would.

If my previous experience with him serves well, his paranoia does not stem anything he believes you will do, but his own personal negative outlook on his own action's effect on the relationship. [Not that he knows or cares about Bones or anything.]