For Fucks Sake
I can't help but notice the majority of people post entries about what they do, who they have crushes on and what they're into musically for the moment. I wish I could be as void and boring.. Ha ha. Don't mind me, overall I'm just bitter and showing no signs of improvement. I tend to believe by entrusting myself to others I will somehow "come out on top". That some amazing person will come along and make me realize I'm cynical for all the wrong reasons and show me how wonderful life really is. Though more often than not my friends, romantic interests and sometimes my family (rarely) make me feel inadequate. I'm sure I read into things too thoroughly and give far too little credit to my friends and so forth. I just can't remember one time in the last couple weeks that someones given as much time and effort to a relationship as myself. Well...That's not entirely true. My friend Julie is always there for me. History while sometimes painful.. is the only thing you can count on, because the past can never leave you or abandon you. Like new people.
Honestly though, it's all my fault. I'm evasive and abruptly spiteful of confines and constraints. If I'm lucky no one will know what I'm speaking of.. and I can continue to be overly clever and unintelligible.
Honestly though, it's all my fault. I'm evasive and abruptly spiteful of confines and constraints. If I'm lucky no one will know what I'm speaking of.. and I can continue to be overly clever and unintelligible.