spookS

[frolicplay]

this hidden part of me keeps coming up
someone some part of me that i deny myself?
that i dont want to face
afraid to face or confront?
im not sure if i even know how to confront it
apparently it scares me.lol
i dreamt of a house that was not mine
that i broke in to

i wish i knew what the hell was going on.lol

if there are parts of myself i havent 'unlocked'
..that sounds so weird.scary even

when i was younger i had something that haunted me
a shadow i suppose
he wore a hood
and showed himself only once
with bright yellow eyes
scared the living shit out of me
it was when i was living in the basement
in the twin bed.
i couldnt sleep that night
and it spooked me for ahwile there after.
one night i laid down and repeated
'leave me alone go away'
over and over
--i heard it would help.
and it did! lol
i havent thought about this in a long while.. it's a bit overwhelming