how crazy is this?
So right now I don't know how to feel. Just here recently I have broken up with Anthony and don't know whether to be happy or not... Also I just received a weird e-mail and for some strange reason this person opened my eyes to something I think I have been blinded to for a long time. Let's just say because of this e-mail I think I might discontinue writing in live journal. I really see no reason except seeing what's happening with my friends. This e-mail wasn't bad, it was just truth. Which for me I have a very hard time telling the truth. I don't know now though...after reading this e-mail I had to ask myself the question..."why do I lie?" In all honesty isn't it better to tell the truth instead of someone finding it out for themselves? For one of the first times in my life I have felt inspired to be a better person. I don't know why... I just do. I know that I have told many friends that from now "I would lie no more", but for some weird reason... it's the truth this time. I am going to try my hardest from now on... then maybe I will actually grow up. I thought for the longest time that I was so much older and mature then people my age, but come to realize I am not better if not worse. Crazy huh? I know this journal was random, but I just had to type it! Well, I am getting tired... the pills I took are really starting to kick in. Night... but not yet goodbye.