Beware of lots of complaining...
I am exhausted - physically, intellectually, and emotionally - and feel like I'm falling apart. Where do I even begin to explain...
The spring semester ended last week (May 5-9), but summer classes started Monday, May 12. No break at all. Nothing. Gee, I wonder why we are all so burned out when the two year program doesn't have a break. I am bitter about that. It was a busy weekend too with family in. It was nice to see them, but I needed a break not company, you know? It's not their fault just bad timing.
Also, I'm still finishing up my internship. I would have to look to be exact, but I have about 40-42 hours yet to do. Overall, this wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have all my summer classes starting and placing high demands on me without any sort of a break.
The kids have been CRAZY lately since the end of the year is nearly here. I mean bullying and defiance is high.
I have also had on my mind the job. As you may remember, the lady I am doing my internship with is retiring, and I have applied for it. It was recently posted in the school, but I have heard nothing about it. I wish I would know because it would affect how I leave at the end of the school year. I mean preparation-wise. I would take books and things with me to look at and plan ahead with stuff. Plus, the longer I have been at these schools the more I want the job. I really like many of the kids I work with and want to be able to be there for them and work with them again next year.
Over the last week or week and a half, my back has started bothering me BIG TIME again. Now, for the last nearly 2 months I have been going to a chiropractor twice a week and it had been feeling better. That was until finals week. It's been worse since then. Basically, I have been paying $70 a week for my back to get better and it's not. I'm not exactly rolling in the dough right now being that I'm unemployed, so this is particularly frustrating to me! Also, I think it just goes to show my back is not going to be significantly better until I finish school and my back pain is tied to stress.
My back has been particularly bothering me at night which has been keeping me from sleeping very well or very much. So, during the week, I have been sleeping from about 6.5 hours when I usually sleep about 8 or so hours a night. I need lots of sleep. I'm sure my lack of restfulness has led to the next thing...
I have managed to get sick. I am congested and coughing up crap (this is particularly annoying at night). It's all in my lungs. My head and eyes hurt, and I can't breathe very well. I feel miserable.
Have I mentioned that I just miss my husband and getting to spend time with him? I mean we watch tv together sometimes, but that's about it. I miss it just being the two of us. I miss our privacy. I'm sure his parents do too. I mean it's not like we are fighting with his parents or anything. We get along fine. I just miss having a place that is just ours. I hope that makes sense.
But despite that, I have lots of reading and assignments to do for class. Plus, I MUST get my internship hours in. And I fear I will miss something for my internship and it will bite me in the ass later.
The spring semester ended last week (May 5-9), but summer classes started Monday, May 12. No break at all. Nothing. Gee, I wonder why we are all so burned out when the two year program doesn't have a break. I am bitter about that. It was a busy weekend too with family in. It was nice to see them, but I needed a break not company, you know? It's not their fault just bad timing.
Also, I'm still finishing up my internship. I would have to look to be exact, but I have about 40-42 hours yet to do. Overall, this wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have all my summer classes starting and placing high demands on me without any sort of a break.
The kids have been CRAZY lately since the end of the year is nearly here. I mean bullying and defiance is high.
I have also had on my mind the job. As you may remember, the lady I am doing my internship with is retiring, and I have applied for it. It was recently posted in the school, but I have heard nothing about it. I wish I would know because it would affect how I leave at the end of the school year. I mean preparation-wise. I would take books and things with me to look at and plan ahead with stuff. Plus, the longer I have been at these schools the more I want the job. I really like many of the kids I work with and want to be able to be there for them and work with them again next year.
Over the last week or week and a half, my back has started bothering me BIG TIME again. Now, for the last nearly 2 months I have been going to a chiropractor twice a week and it had been feeling better. That was until finals week. It's been worse since then. Basically, I have been paying $70 a week for my back to get better and it's not. I'm not exactly rolling in the dough right now being that I'm unemployed, so this is particularly frustrating to me! Also, I think it just goes to show my back is not going to be significantly better until I finish school and my back pain is tied to stress.
My back has been particularly bothering me at night which has been keeping me from sleeping very well or very much. So, during the week, I have been sleeping from about 6.5 hours when I usually sleep about 8 or so hours a night. I need lots of sleep. I'm sure my lack of restfulness has led to the next thing...
I have managed to get sick. I am congested and coughing up crap (this is particularly annoying at night). It's all in my lungs. My head and eyes hurt, and I can't breathe very well. I feel miserable.
Have I mentioned that I just miss my husband and getting to spend time with him? I mean we watch tv together sometimes, but that's about it. I miss it just being the two of us. I miss our privacy. I'm sure his parents do too. I mean it's not like we are fighting with his parents or anything. We get along fine. I just miss having a place that is just ours. I hope that makes sense.
But despite that, I have lots of reading and assignments to do for class. Plus, I MUST get my internship hours in. And I fear I will miss something for my internship and it will bite me in the ass later.