Fun and Work
Today I didn't think I was going to have any fun, but I saw Pirates of the Caribbean III and it was a blast. It made me think of Starwood. It inspired me to sew some costumes. It inspired me to have fun again in my life - to be a pirate. I was glad to see it. Yes, there are some silly logical inconsistencies but that was expected and therefore, no big deal. Just go to have fun and overlook that stuff and you can have fun. (Although the romance ending was really quite sad - pathetic if you ask me - and you need to wait for the end of the credits to see a short sequence - the credits go on forever and the sequence is very short!) I guess it reminds me of The Princess Bride in that the romance parts were like, "Oh man! Do I have to hear about that? Get to the good stuff." LOL
I'm supposed to be sleeping because tomorrow (even though it's Saturday) will be a physical labor on the house day. We're sanding and refinishing our wood floors because Shadow's nails have scratched it all to hell. I have no experience with that and no idea what it will be like. I have a dread of doing projects like that w/ Quinn and I don't know exactly why.
I have baggage from childhood that gets triggered by those projects and I hear my mom's voice telling me I can't do anything right and to "just let me do it" and I start to feel like crying and giving up. But I feel that way before I even heard the instructions or even had a chance to do anything. It's quite childish and pathetic that I should go through that as a grown adult. So I'm working on it, which means that even though it's a physical labor day, it's not free of emotional work and I'll be probably emotionally exhausted as much as my body will ache. As James recently reminded me, this too shall pass. (Thanks.)
Eh, I'll get to sleep now. Just wanted to sort out some of my thoughts first.
My main thought is: friends are so important. I need more fun times with friends to keep my spirits up. I always feel so much better after some good laughs with friends and some good conversations. That's part of why tonight I feel better. Watching Pirates w/ friends.
I'm supposed to be sleeping because tomorrow (even though it's Saturday) will be a physical labor on the house day. We're sanding and refinishing our wood floors because Shadow's nails have scratched it all to hell. I have no experience with that and no idea what it will be like. I have a dread of doing projects like that w/ Quinn and I don't know exactly why.
I have baggage from childhood that gets triggered by those projects and I hear my mom's voice telling me I can't do anything right and to "just let me do it" and I start to feel like crying and giving up. But I feel that way before I even heard the instructions or even had a chance to do anything. It's quite childish and pathetic that I should go through that as a grown adult. So I'm working on it, which means that even though it's a physical labor day, it's not free of emotional work and I'll be probably emotionally exhausted as much as my body will ache. As James recently reminded me, this too shall pass. (Thanks.)
Eh, I'll get to sleep now. Just wanted to sort out some of my thoughts first.
My main thought is: friends are so important. I need more fun times with friends to keep my spirits up. I always feel so much better after some good laughs with friends and some good conversations. That's part of why tonight I feel better. Watching Pirates w/ friends.