I love this kid
I love being a mom. Its exhausting and tiring but so worth it. Its really hard to believe you can love someone that much.I've only really known him 5 days. I love my son so much and would so die for him in a second to protect him from everything. Mike is taking baby steps. He's learning. He's been over every day except once when he had to work late. I just wish he'd spend more time with his son than shopping at the mall with his married gf and her kid. But he's not even been here a week. Maybe things will improve. I just have to keep reminding myself of stuff over and over to get through it. Brendan is so worth it. He's everything and just hope Michael can see that. And maybe start softening and forgiving and forgetting shit. I feel like a totally different person. Like the person I was before is gone, there is only this megan now. Better. Like I've been born again almost, with no mistakes. I've never screwed up before. You get the idea i hope. Ah, my son is awake.