almost a baby today
Posted new pictures on my new arrival page from my son's sonogram today. She got my hopes up today about inducing me. The radiologist read my AFI at 4, which is incredibly low. But another doctor came in and read it again and found 11, not 4. Which is good. So, unfortunately no inducment and they gave me lunch, monitered me longer and then let me go. I'm kinda worried that when I do go into labor that I'm really going to want Michael there. I couldn't help but wanted him there today. And I knew I couldn't call him. I couldn't risk it. He wouldn't hurt us, at least not physically. This whole situation sucks. Made me even madder at him that he could act like this. We were supposed to be a family and he fucked it all up. Jerk. I just keep reminding myself that I'm going to raise my son to be a good man. Thats all I can do.