Sometimes I don't really exist.
I think one may find, if doing a mathematical analysis of my LJ, that the frequency of posts goes up exponentially when my mood goes down. I feel like I would feel extremely overwhelmed right now...if I had the energy or motivation to care. Here are the things on my mind right now:
* I have a 35-40 page research paper due next Friday that I've only just started research on. I need all the research time I can get, so I'm spending the entire time the library is open tomorrow, and as much time as I can on Tuesday and Wednesday, doing research.
* I have a 5-page paper for my opera class that was due on Thursday that I currently have ~2 pages of done. I emailed my professor to ask for an extension, but haven't heard back from her in more than 3 days. She has made no mention of her late policy, either on the syllabus or in person. The paper is worth 20% of my grade. If she counts down a grade a day, I'm screwed.
* I have theory homework (a class I haven't gone to in a while because of trying to catch up on other homework from when I was sick) that's due Tuesday morning at 9, and I have no idea how to do it.
* I have German homework due tomorrow that I have not started, and will most likely not have time to do, including (but not limited to) a movie viewing worksheet, a 1-page paper (LLJ), and 5-7 articles to read.
* I asked off work for the week, citing panic and grade failure, but my boss has not gotten back to me. If I have to work, that cuts out Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday afternoon/early evening for researching, homework, and paper writing...in which case I will be screwed.
* Several of my close friends and ex-loves are getting married this summer, and I'm feeling pressure to do so, even though I know I'm not ready for that right now.
* I have to continue planning a trip to Ireland and book interior transportation and lodging before prices go up.
* I have to buy football tickets.
* I may be interested in going into music therapy as a career (which would nicely combine both my love of difficult cases and my music love into one thing), but I don't know much about it.
* I'm seriously questioning why I'm putting myself through another year of music classes I don't want to take, for a career I may or may not end up having, just to not cut off options.
* I have no housing for next year, and living with my family will choke me (as has been evident from the past 24 hours here at home).
* I want to find volunteer opportunities so that I can figure out what I want to do with my life, but I have little time.
* I have no money and my job does not pay well enough to sustain me through rent in Ann Arbor.
* Kathy is getting married, and we're taking a trip this summer together before it happens. This needs to be planned and booked and discussed.
* I'm apparently helping to plan a shower for Angie, even though I have no time and no resources and probably don't need anything else to think about.
* I'm out of shape, overweight, and unhealthy. I need to boost my immune system and get back into a healthier lifestyle (and a healthier weight).
* I have no idea what I believe anymore about anything.
I think I might just go to sleep. Why am I wasting my time on LJ?
* I have a 35-40 page research paper due next Friday that I've only just started research on. I need all the research time I can get, so I'm spending the entire time the library is open tomorrow, and as much time as I can on Tuesday and Wednesday, doing research.
* I have a 5-page paper for my opera class that was due on Thursday that I currently have ~2 pages of done. I emailed my professor to ask for an extension, but haven't heard back from her in more than 3 days. She has made no mention of her late policy, either on the syllabus or in person. The paper is worth 20% of my grade. If she counts down a grade a day, I'm screwed.
* I have theory homework (a class I haven't gone to in a while because of trying to catch up on other homework from when I was sick) that's due Tuesday morning at 9, and I have no idea how to do it.
* I have German homework due tomorrow that I have not started, and will most likely not have time to do, including (but not limited to) a movie viewing worksheet, a 1-page paper (LLJ), and 5-7 articles to read.
* I asked off work for the week, citing panic and grade failure, but my boss has not gotten back to me. If I have to work, that cuts out Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday afternoon/early evening for researching, homework, and paper writing...in which case I will be screwed.
* Several of my close friends and ex-loves are getting married this summer, and I'm feeling pressure to do so, even though I know I'm not ready for that right now.
* I have to continue planning a trip to Ireland and book interior transportation and lodging before prices go up.
* I have to buy football tickets.
* I may be interested in going into music therapy as a career (which would nicely combine both my love of difficult cases and my music love into one thing), but I don't know much about it.
* I'm seriously questioning why I'm putting myself through another year of music classes I don't want to take, for a career I may or may not end up having, just to not cut off options.
* I have no housing for next year, and living with my family will choke me (as has been evident from the past 24 hours here at home).
* I want to find volunteer opportunities so that I can figure out what I want to do with my life, but I have little time.
* I have no money and my job does not pay well enough to sustain me through rent in Ann Arbor.
* Kathy is getting married, and we're taking a trip this summer together before it happens. This needs to be planned and booked and discussed.
* I'm apparently helping to plan a shower for Angie, even though I have no time and no resources and probably don't need anything else to think about.
* I'm out of shape, overweight, and unhealthy. I need to boost my immune system and get back into a healthier lifestyle (and a healthier weight).
* I have no idea what I believe anymore about anything.
I think I might just go to sleep. Why am I wasting my time on LJ?