Farina is losing.
I feel like everyone's taking this too lightly. Like it's a matter we can just sit and ignore. And it's either because: 1) no one believes me, or 2) no one likes to take sides.
Sometimes there's this sudden urge to SUE him. Every time I think about what happened, my heart feels so heavy, like it's being ripped. (no, it doesnt feel like it's being rubbed on sandpaper. that's the worst feeling my heart has ever felt) It just feels so torrential and vulnerable.
Every day I wish I wouldn't have to go home. I get scared and paranoid. If every parent allowed their children to have impromptu sleepovers, I'd sleep at a friend's house. But no, in this generation, that's quite rare.
So I always end up going home, since it's MY home after all.
This is what betrayal does to my poor soul.
I just want it to be all over. :(( huhuhu