Hey look at this!!!!
I haven't updated in a while, I figured I would now. I guess I'm spending too much time on gaia...but atleast I'm meeting new and interesting people. That and uo are taking up most of my time. Man, I need to get out more!!!!!! I need to get my lisence so I can start school and get a job so Bratt and I can maybe get an appartment. Charlie will be so pissed when he finds out. But, maybe it's too early for us to be living together. I know he says he can't sleep when I'm not here, but he did when I wasn't in his life. We got into an arguement tonight (online fights are sooooooooooooooooo much fun) He said that he's never gotten what he wants. He never told me what he wants because he wanted to make me happy instead. Yeah, I do so many things that I do because I want to. Brittni knows some of the things I'm talking about, we had a conversation about it the other week. And I'm living here... but you know, he didn't want me to or anything. But even though we do fight, I love him so much and I want to be with him forever. I really don't mean to bitch about him when I get on here. he is a really great guy, the best. It's just that sometimes he gets on my nerves, and I have to vent.
I really don't want to live here though. I mean I love him and his family. I love living with him, I just wish that it was just us sometimes. Like we had an appt. or something, but I guess I'll just have to get used to it for a few years. I don't see him leaving any sooner than that.
Thinking about my life up to this point makes me hate myself. I should have gotten a job years ago, had my lisence, and a good chunk of money saved up. But, I don't. I had to go and throw away all my money on stupid clothes and an even more stupid ex. So, now I have no money, no car, and no job. But I guess that's how life goes for an ignorant girl who makes horribly wrong decisions.
Any way. I'm going Wednesday to see about a job, I got there too late the other day, and she was already gone. But, life is going good for me (all things accounted) and I'm very happy.
I really don't want to live here though. I mean I love him and his family. I love living with him, I just wish that it was just us sometimes. Like we had an appt. or something, but I guess I'll just have to get used to it for a few years. I don't see him leaving any sooner than that.
Thinking about my life up to this point makes me hate myself. I should have gotten a job years ago, had my lisence, and a good chunk of money saved up. But, I don't. I had to go and throw away all my money on stupid clothes and an even more stupid ex. So, now I have no money, no car, and no job. But I guess that's how life goes for an ignorant girl who makes horribly wrong decisions.
Any way. I'm going Wednesday to see about a job, I got there too late the other day, and she was already gone. But, life is going good for me (all things accounted) and I'm very happy.