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5:00 p.m.
Okay so I am doing a research paper on if anitdepressants are really appropiate for teenagers. Well I got into the topic with my dad, and he started saying that he felt that I should have never been on the pills. I told him that I thought it was genetic, being that all of my mom's side of the family suffers from depression. Well my dad started saying that he thinks my mom's side goes to the extreme because they aren't educated. What the hell does not being educated have to do with depression? He isn't educated either so what gives him the right to make that assumption? Then he asked my I am happier here then I was at my mom's. I told him that I felt more stable here. It makes a huge difference when you don't have two parents living with you. I told him that, and he said that he doesn't feel that that is true. He thinks that being a single parent is no excuse for my mom to act the way she does. My mom is single mom who works 13 hour shift as a nurse, she is putting two kids through college and supporting two other all by herself,and he was telling me that my mom shouldn't stress out the way she does. Yeah like he would fucken know how it is to be single, yeah while he was married to my mom he got a girl pregnant and still had another girl on the side, so he has no right to critize on my mom and how she is single. He has no clue what it is like for my mom to be a sinlge parent. Then he started to argue with the way my mom has raised us, yeah at least she was there to say she raised. When the hell was he ever there, the only thing he has to show for is his damn sperm and his money. He thinks cause I am staying with him for what 7 months, that it is going to make up for 16 years of him being a fuck up dad. I am so pissed, don't get me wrong I love my dad to death but he has NO right to put my mom down the way he did. My mom could have raised me on the streets and hoed around for money and I would still respect her more than I do my dad. wow didn't know I had all that anger in me! Yeah i am still pissed but i feel better. Let's see what else,I am not going to see anthony today or tomorrow cuz he has baseball. yeah that sucks.
7:30 p.m.
Oh my god I think me and Anthony just had the stupidest fight EVER! He got mad at me because I said that I think coaches take a sport way too serious. He like got all offended and saying that I am not going to strive and all this other nonsense. Yeah stupid right. Ugh I was just like when you realize how stupid this arguement is then call me back, but he hasn't. I am not even mad, i actually think it's funny just cuz it is SO stupid. I seriously miss Chris. I can't wait to go to El Paso, so i could watch hear them play. When I gave blood there was this doctor guy who reminded me of him, I feel bad cuz i haven't called him. I wonder whats happening with him and his gf. hmmm...? I told him he needs to dump her, she's no good, but no he doesn't listen to me. I think I will call him tomorrow. Oh Monica you need to call me!
Countdown till I go to El Paso: 9 days
Okay so I am doing a research paper on if anitdepressants are really appropiate for teenagers. Well I got into the topic with my dad, and he started saying that he felt that I should have never been on the pills. I told him that I thought it was genetic, being that all of my mom's side of the family suffers from depression. Well my dad started saying that he thinks my mom's side goes to the extreme because they aren't educated. What the hell does not being educated have to do with depression? He isn't educated either so what gives him the right to make that assumption? Then he asked my I am happier here then I was at my mom's. I told him that I felt more stable here. It makes a huge difference when you don't have two parents living with you. I told him that, and he said that he doesn't feel that that is true. He thinks that being a single parent is no excuse for my mom to act the way she does. My mom is single mom who works 13 hour shift as a nurse, she is putting two kids through college and supporting two other all by herself,and he was telling me that my mom shouldn't stress out the way she does. Yeah like he would fucken know how it is to be single, yeah while he was married to my mom he got a girl pregnant and still had another girl on the side, so he has no right to critize on my mom and how she is single. He has no clue what it is like for my mom to be a sinlge parent. Then he started to argue with the way my mom has raised us, yeah at least she was there to say she raised. When the hell was he ever there, the only thing he has to show for is his damn sperm and his money. He thinks cause I am staying with him for what 7 months, that it is going to make up for 16 years of him being a fuck up dad. I am so pissed, don't get me wrong I love my dad to death but he has NO right to put my mom down the way he did. My mom could have raised me on the streets and hoed around for money and I would still respect her more than I do my dad. wow didn't know I had all that anger in me! Yeah i am still pissed but i feel better. Let's see what else,I am not going to see anthony today or tomorrow cuz he has baseball. yeah that sucks.
7:30 p.m.
Oh my god I think me and Anthony just had the stupidest fight EVER! He got mad at me because I said that I think coaches take a sport way too serious. He like got all offended and saying that I am not going to strive and all this other nonsense. Yeah stupid right. Ugh I was just like when you realize how stupid this arguement is then call me back, but he hasn't. I am not even mad, i actually think it's funny just cuz it is SO stupid. I seriously miss Chris. I can't wait to go to El Paso, so i could watch hear them play. When I gave blood there was this doctor guy who reminded me of him, I feel bad cuz i haven't called him. I wonder whats happening with him and his gf. hmmm...? I told him he needs to dump her, she's no good, but no he doesn't listen to me. I think I will call him tomorrow. Oh Monica you need to call me!
Countdown till I go to El Paso: 9 days