No Boundaries.
A relationship with no boundaries.
Is it even possible?
If it's possible, is it desirable?
If you can ask for it then you must also give it. If I can give you what you want--what you need--from me, then you must take it all.
I have to take all of the lessons I've learned from you and applied to him and turn them around, and learn from him that I can still love you and not be weak, and not be me. Experiencing love is not a weakness, it is a strength. My emotionality, my experience of love, does not damage my integrity, it shores it up. Just like our losses of faith. Yours came from one direction and mine another, but the result was the same loss. Yours took you from peace into anxiety, and mine from anxiety into peace. To you, emotion is turmoil. It interferes with the working of the rational mind. To me, emotion is power. It provokes the rational mind. When you internalize the idea that what you think is wrong all you have left are your feelings. Your feelings tell you what is True and give your mind an anchor.
Your frustration comes because I can emote first and arrive at a sound, defensible conclusion, but I cannot always reach the same conclusion through "rational" means. Your paradox. Me.
When your subconscious speaks to mine it works. Months ago you told me to breathe lightly. Now I can.
I miss you because I can.
Is it even possible?
If it's possible, is it desirable?
If you can ask for it then you must also give it. If I can give you what you want--what you need--from me, then you must take it all.
I have to take all of the lessons I've learned from you and applied to him and turn them around, and learn from him that I can still love you and not be weak, and not be me. Experiencing love is not a weakness, it is a strength. My emotionality, my experience of love, does not damage my integrity, it shores it up. Just like our losses of faith. Yours came from one direction and mine another, but the result was the same loss. Yours took you from peace into anxiety, and mine from anxiety into peace. To you, emotion is turmoil. It interferes with the working of the rational mind. To me, emotion is power. It provokes the rational mind. When you internalize the idea that what you think is wrong all you have left are your feelings. Your feelings tell you what is True and give your mind an anchor.
Your frustration comes because I can emote first and arrive at a sound, defensible conclusion, but I cannot always reach the same conclusion through "rational" means. Your paradox. Me.
When your subconscious speaks to mine it works. Months ago you told me to breathe lightly. Now I can.
I miss you because I can.